Weekly accomplishments

Ok so keeping track daily isn't working, but a weekly reflection on some awesome things I did? Let's see how that goes!

Im reflecting from last Friday to Friday lunch time

Things I did awesome!

I went to the gym twice this week. That's 100% more often than the week before
I rode to and/or from work 4 times this week
I started running again
I tried my first class at the new gym - boxing! I was intimidated for the first few minutes then I realised I'm not nearly as unfit as I thought and remembered how much I LOVE boxing
I stopped myself from eating extra after dinner once. It was really hard, but I did it and felt so proud when I woke up
Everytime I overate I didn't beat myself up. Instead I focused on how it made me feel (mostly lethargic, full and sick!) and thought about what i could do better/differently next time.
I went shopping early one morning and bought lots of nice food when it would have been just as easy to sleep in
I've been a little more organised around the house, spending more time cleaning and organising than usual
I remembered to drink a glass of water most mornings with breakfast
Have set myself some realistic goals of what to work on next week rather than expecting too much of myself.

Things I can work on

I overestimated how much I could eat a few times - for example last Friday I ate a huge pork katsu don and then a mcflurry. I felt so full! I could have had half of the katsu don and then a billabong ice cream instead. i would have been just as satisfied
I ate extra after dinner most nights when I didn't really need it.
I would have gone to the gym 3 ngihts this week but I'm coming down with a flu, today. I want to start taking multi vitamins and eating more vegatables to combat this
More water! I really think this will help with my overall well being and eating at night.
Be a little more organised - ie spend some of my night cleaning rather than just sitting and eating and watching TV.
I keep weighing myself even though I said I wouldn't. Need to put those scales away!

Re-evaluating

It's been a long time since I've written here. In the last week I had somewhat of a revelation. Because of that revelation I have given up weight watchers, given up points counting, and given up feeling bad about myself.

Life is too short to hate myself all the time.

It's also too short to be a slave to food.

So, right now I'm focusing on intuitive eating. When I want to eat I ask myself what I want, I ask myself if I'm hungry and I act based on that.

I've also realised taht emotional eating isn't actually a bad thing.

mindless eating, a eating instead of dealing with issues 100% of the time and binge eating, however, aren't the greatest and that's what life's too short for. BUT, if I mess up - I'm not going to beat myself up.

I am fixing my relationship with food.

Right now I'm keen to track what I eat just out of curiosity - but i'm worried the habit of tracking will let me fall back into old habits. Will I beat myself up if I see a few too much chocolate on there? I don't know.

I'm going to try and keep track and if I feel myself getting upset or stressed out by the process, I'll stop.

Today I've eaten

Oats with skim milk, skim yogurt and sultanas - normal serve
Coles nut muesli bar (with chocolate - delicious!)
Wholemeal hummus, turkey and brie sandwhich - didn't go over the top with the brie!
Passionfruit yogurt - low fat
4 small pieces of french bread with dip, oil, pickles, sundried tomatoes etc
1 x pot of beer
1 x large prawn pita pizza
2 x serves of weght watchers chocolates pudding
2 glasses of water
1 glass of fizzy drink

Exercise

Nada!

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Trying really hard

I had a very emotional weekend and as such haven't been tracking or exercising at all this week. I know that if I did I would feel better and more in control, but honestly, I needed a break.

I am not giving up on this blog and I will endeavor to get back on track next week.

I am stopping WW meetings. I know it might not be the best decision but I need a break from that too. The last few weeks they've been repeating meeting topics that we'd only just covered and personally I feel that's a waste of my time and money.

I am really keen to get back into running despite still having ankle issues so I'll be downloading the C25K podcast this week and getting that started first thing Monday.

I'll also be visiting my mum and best friend in Hobart this weekend. I really need to get away from Melbourne and some of the people in it. I love it here, but I need the comfort of my home town as much as possible right now.

I have started a tumblr where I'll be posting a photo of everything I eat. borneater.tumblr.com

I've been doing Photo A Day over at my other tumbler (emmaleesharp.tumblr.com) and so far I've actually managed to post 3 days in a row which is impressive so I'm hoping I can keep it up. I am quite forgetful though!

Anyway I'll try very hard over the next week to get back on plan. I owe it to myself!

I can't face it

I'm up on the scale and I feel bloated and disgusting. I had such a good week and I ruined it last night by getting drunk and coming home and eating four crumpets slathered in butter.

I can't go to yet another meeting and put on weight. I just can't. It will break my heart. I know I did so much better, it's not about the number on the scale, so I don't see why I should have to look at it. See the look of the weigher as she jots down a number almost identical or more than last week, sit in a meeting learning about stuff I already know (and was covered less than 4 weeks ago, get your act together) I just can't do it today. I feel gross.

I'm skipping my meeting. I'm going to clean my house, go out and eat a super healthy breakfast. Go shopping for vegies, go opshopping and then have a quiet night in because I spent all my money.

On the upside - I had a great night last night and I wouldn't trade it.

Goals for Week 2 May

This first week of May my focus was really on getting my eating back on track. And I have to say, despite not sticking to everything 100% I've really made some head way. Not one single binge this week! I've really been listening to my body and focusing on what I need. If I'm hungry I eat, if I'm not I don't. I've been making some pretty good choices too.

In the second week I want to stick with that - obviously trying harder to stick with 19 points every day, but mainly just avoiding binges and bad choices, but I really want to get back to exercise.

I've only really managed 3 workouts this week - it used to be 6 days a week! And I loved it!

So my plan is to go to every early morning class I can. I need to train my body into getting up early and getting fit so I guess this is a bit like my own boot camp.

Saturday: Circuit
Sunday: Yoga and Futsal
Monday: Body Attack
Tuesday: Boxing circuit
Wednesday: Body Attack
Thursday: Rest (after gig)
Friday: Body step

I wont necessarily push myself in every class - I need to listen to my body. My only aim is to show up!

Also, I really need to start drinking more water. I'm taking a bottle with me today in the hopes that that will help.

Almost the end of week 1

The first week of May has gone off reasonably well.

I will admit that I haven't stuck to my food plan 100% and have gone over by up to 6-7 points on some days, generally 2-3 on others. However, I feel much more in control of my eating and I haven't binged once.

I have generally stuck to my exercise though I realise now that my fitness levels aren't what they used to be. I only managed about 17 minutes on the exercise bike. Rather than aiming for 40 minutes, I aim to add a minute to each turn on the bike. Today I'm aiming for 18 minutes!

I have felt *really* hungry all the time this week so I've decided to try and figure out why.

I have set up a spreadsheet for May to map my energy levels and mood. In the spreadsheet I make a note of which week I am into my cycle, jot down 2-3 words to describe my general mood for the week, rate my energy levels and health for the week out of 10 and then make a note of my average daily points intake and average daily points earnt through exercise.

It'll be interesting to see how the amount of food I eat and exercise I do effects my mood and energy levels and vice versa. I'm particularly interested to see how I rate my health during my cycle and whether the exercise and food levels effect how I feel during my cycle. It's all so interconnected! I will post the first results on Saturday.

Hello!

I posted something up on Sunday but stupidly put it on the wrong blog! Damn multiple Gmail accounts.

Aaaanyway, I'm very pleased to report that the weekend was a big success. I stayed on plan, made adjustments where necessary, didn't binge, did all my planned exercise and feel *really* proud of myself.

Monday was also quite good, though I did drink a little too much wine and probably had a few too many roast potatoes at my friends house! But again, I didn't binge and I adjusted my points during the day to accomodate this.

Today I feel a little hungover, though. which in turn make me feel *very* hungry! I doubled up on breakfast because I had a fair few spare points, had a muffin first thing at work and I still feel like I could eat a horse. Every time I get a hungr pang I have a big drink of water which will hopefully tide me over until lunch. I don't really have any options - I have no money and there's only candy to eat.

Wish me luck!

Another month, another fresh start

This past week wasn't great. Too sick for exercise, hungry all the time, didn't care.

I put on 800gms.

But it's a new month and a new week and armed with my A-Z of Motivation I can do this.

I would love to be down to 66kg by the end of the month. This is ambitious but doable.

This morning I went to the gym, despite my ankle being quite sore and despite feeling a little faint from being sick. I thought, after my warm up, that maybe I'd made the wrong decision. I really wasn't well at all. But I decided to stick it out and take it easy and I'm so glad I did. I felt good by the end of it. We have a new instructor for the next few weeks and a change really was as good as a holiday.

After that was WW meeting. Today was all about portion control. I'm not sure what's happening with meetings but we covered portion control about 5 weeks ago, and next week apparently we're talking about the energy deficit which we talked about only 3 weeks ago! A bit strange but I'm going to stick it out. I want to be member of the month for May which means attending every meetingn and losing just 1% of my starting weight which is less than 1kg for me. I know I can do it.

Because I'm now over 69kg I've had to reset my goals from my motivation page.

It now looks a little like this;

• Goal 1: 68.5kg Reward: Small plant from IKEA
  
• Goal 2: 68kg Reward: Magazine
• Goal 3: 67.5kg Reward: Bikini Wax
• Goal 4: 67kg Reward: Chinese massage
• Goal 5: 66.5kg: Reward: New make up
• Goal 6: 66 kg: Reward: New shoes

I have a fellow WW'er coming round for dinner. I'm having low fat hummous and corn chips for entree, lamb roganjosh with rice from the WW website for mains and fresh strawberries with greek yogurt and honey for dessert. I bought a bottle of wine as well, I'm limiting myself to two glasses.

Lots of exercised planned for this weekend, too! I'm really looking forward to getting back into it.

Sick day

I've decided to take a sick day today. Usually I only do that when I'm on death's door, but I'm determined not to be down and out for a week so despite feeling extremely guilty, i'm off for the day. I plan on napping, drinking lots of tea and taking vitamins, tidying my house when I have the energy and eating on plan!

I'll report back and let you know how it's all going.

A to Z of motivation

I'm really struggling to be motivated at the moment. With everything that's going on in my life, I feel like I've just given up even trying. I'm plodding along, not really gaining weight but not loosing either, and I feel disappointed.

I typed "motivation" into the WW search engine and came up with the A-Z list of motivation and have decided to create my own personalised motivation plan, based on theirs. I plan to put this into action in the month of May to see if it makes any difference!

Action 1 Adapt your food plan

I find things work best for me when I cook my meals in advance and ensure that they have all of the nutrients I need. I also need to have something that feels like a treat, but isn't. In the first 6 months of WW I would come back from my meeting, plan all my meals and then go shopping. I will start doing this again in the month of May (starting from this Saturday, the 1st).

3 meals + 1 baked good + desserts

Action 2 Be specific

WW says; "Be specific about your goals. How will you feel when you've achieved them? What will you see? What will you hear?"

I will feel proud of myself when I acheieve them. I will feel like I worked hard to make changes that I can keep for life. Worked hard to find things that don't feel like hard work. I will look in the mirror and feel content with what I see. I will hear my friends complimenting me again on how I look. I will feel strong and confident not just because I'm thinner, but because I acheived what I set out to and invested time and effort in myself.

Action 3 - Create small goals and rewards

Since gaining all this weight recently all I can think about is that 64.8kg I once saw on my home scales. I need to forget about that. That's the past. I need to go back to my usual weekly goal of 500 g.

• Goal 1: 68kg Reward: Magazine
• Goal 2: 67.5kg Reward: Bikini Wax
• Goal 4: 67kg Reward: Chinese massage
• Goal 5: 66.5kg: Reward: New make up
• Goal 6: 66 kg: Reward: New shoes
  

Once I have reached the first 6 goals I will create another.

Action 4 - Do something different

WW says; "If you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got. So if what you're doing isn't working, do something different."

I need to identify what isn't working and fix it. What isn't working is being able to resist the candy box, being able to motivate myself for exercise, getting complacent?

How will I fix it?

• Bring 0 point snacks to work so I always have something to munch on.
• Research exercise bike training programs so I have a goal to work towards
• Repeat to myself that it is not good enough to skip exercise and eat candy!

Action 5 Evolve strategies that work.

I actually think I've done a pretty good job at this already and my life has changed considerably - it's just sticking to them. There are a few things I've done in the past that have worked for me but I haven't kept them up lately. In May I will work the following into my routine

• Washing up straight after dinner as this stops be from binge eating and lowers my house-mess related stress levels
• Brush my teeth straight after dinner - great for binging and also good for dental hygiene
• Go for a walk straight after lunch at work - to keep me away from the candy box

Action 6 Find ways to say no and mean it

Saying no is a big issue for me. Especially when it comes to food, and more recently, booze!

• My only goal here really, is to say "No, thank you" to anything that isn't on plan. And be confident about it!

Action 7 Get Help

I need a support group. I need WW meetings, they really work for me. I also need an exercise partner!

• My goal in May is to start one personal training session a week with Lee.

Action 8 Have fun

Winter is approaching which is a sure-fire way to stay at home and eat myself fat. I wont do that this winter.

• My goal in May is to spend Saturday out and about visiting at least 1 friend.
• Another goal is to get back into Sunday morning yoga

Action 9 Identify your resources

• In May I will promise my mum I will call in once a week with my weight and to have a chat - another lifeline will definitely help!
• Money is another big one, I need to put away a little cash every week for my reward. I will put away $20 in an envelope every week specifically for that purpose

Action 10 Join Weight Watchers Meetings

• In the month of May I will not miss one single WW meeting

Action 11 Keep going

• In May, I will not give up

Action 12 Make small changes.

WW says; "Practise new behaviours until they become habits – it takes approximately 21 'repeats' for something to become a habit"

• My first 21 day goal will be to drink 4 glasses of water before I leave the house in the morning
• My second day goal will to be to not binge eat for 21 days employing the washing up/brushing teeth straight after dinner method

Action 13 Manage your emotions

I find that journalling, calling a friend and going for a walk are my three top ways of dealing with extreme emotions.

• In May I will adopt the saying "write, walk, call" for anytime I feel stressed or upset, rather than eating

Action 14 Negotiate

This means finding substitutes or ways to satisfy cravings. I do this a lot with exercise - I can skip the gym but only if I clean my house top-to-bottom - that sort of thing. And with food I'll substitute popcorn if I want to binge because it means I get to eat for a long period of time without consuming too many points. I will continue to do this!

Action 13 Overcome setbacks.

If I make a mistake, I will not allow it to lead to a ginge or complete break down

Action 14 Plan ahead

Plan and shop for my meals Saturday morning after WW meeting, no excuses.

Action 15 Quit unhelpful habits

My biggest unhelpful habit is TV. Put me in front of one, and you're almost garunteed a binge.

• In May I will live without my TV for a month

Action 16 Repeat positive phrases

Ok I find this a bit naff.

• Instead in May I will read one WW Motivation story per night

Action 17 State goals in the positive

Here are my goals in the positive

• I want to be happy with my body
• I want to feel strong
• I want to feel proud of myself

Action 18 Think Slim

• I will think "what would a thin person do"

Action 19 Learn to Track

I'm already pretty good at this but;

• In May I will track everything I eat, every day

Action 20 Visualise

• When I wake up in the morning I will spend 5 minutes thinking about what I would look like slim

Action 21 Weigh yourself every week

No issue there - but;

• I will put away my scales and *only* weigh myself once a week.

Action 22 Experiment

• I will try 1 new recipe or product every week

Action 23 Zoom in on the positives

• Each day on this blog I will write down one positive thing I have done, no matter how bad the day has been

And there you have it. One very big list of goals for the month of May. I can hardly believe a new month is starting in 3 days. Gah!

Wish me luck!

Waiting for an awesome day

I haven't had a really truly awesome day on plan for a while.

I remember for about 6 months or so last year I was doing so well. Eating the points I should every day, exercising without fail.

But for the past 6 months it seems to be one thing after another that's preventing me from getting where I want to be. Some of those things are out of my control. Others, actually most, are not.

It all started when I turned 26. An age that my ex boyfriends best friend always said would be the worst year of your life. My ex, who just turned 27 two days ago, agreed, and is excited to finally be able to put the last 12 months behind him.

Since I turned 26 I have gained, lost and gained again 5kgs. spent a snowing freezing cold winter in Dublin and then Paris, where unprecedented snow put a huge dent in the image I had of Paris and made me hate public transport even more. I broke up with my boyfriend. My mother was diagnosed with cancer. I sprained my ankle. I've been sick more times than I care to remember. I moved into a flat by myself and while it's fantastic, I can now barely afford to eat.

I have done *very* well at not using any of the above as an excuse to over eat. Apart from illness and a sprained ankle keeping me away from the gym, I've generally remained quite positive.

But I tell you what, my patience is wearing thin.

After waking up this morning with a tickle in my throat, after being so proud I made it back to the gym yesterday, I could barely stay on my exercise bike this morning for more than 5 minutes. Will someone please give me a break?

Ok, time to regroup and work out how to fix this.

Firstly, unlike every other time I feel like I'm getting sick, I'm not going to ignore it. As soon as I finish this post I'm off to run some errands. While out I'll pick up some cheap cold and flu tablets and some echinacea and orange juice for vitamin c. Sure, I can't really afford it, but I can't really afford to be sick either.

I will *not* resort to eating. when I get sick I genuinly feel hungry all. the. time. I am a bottomless pit! But I don't want to gain 2 kgs before the weekend (when I'll be back at WW and was *hoping* for a mammoth loss but I feel like that's a pipe dream now).

I will keep slugging away, I wont use anything that's happened in the last year as an excuse to undo all my good work.

I will remember how awesome I feel when I'm fit, active, eating well and getting smaller. I don't care if I never make goal, I want to feel good! Forever!

Such a fantastic weekend...until

This weekend I went and visited my parents in Hobart.

I was 100% determined for this to be a successful weekend food-wise. So, taking advice from my last weight watchers meeting, I planned the shit out of it.

As I mentioned in a previous post, I got my mum to hide all of the chocolate, biscuits and peanut butter. Then I offered to cook her dinner both nights. Then, I planned everything I was going to eat, leaving myself a couple of extra points for the odd treat. It was a holiday after all.

Friday was day 1. I managed to forget my snack for the airport, but I deliberately didn't carry any money so I avoided a snack. In fact, despite having breakfast at 7am, I managed to make it through until 2pm with nothing to eat! It was so late in the day by the time I got to my parents house that I skipped lunch all together and just had my two snacks.

I made burritos for dinner and allowed myself to have the 2 I planned for. I could have easily had more but I put everything straight into the fridge so I wasn't tempted.

Then I had a slice of my mum's healthy fruit cake she had made for me.

I felt *very* tempted to binge that night. I was so used to eating constantly when I was at my mum's house that it felt weird not to. I was fidgety, I drank tonnes of water, but ultimately I went to bed early and managed to not binge. And I felt *great*

The next day I made a double pot of oats for my mum and me for breakfast. Then I went out to visit my friend in her new house. She offered tea and biscuits. In the past I would have eaten 3, 4, 5 biscuits. Instead I ate one. I chose my absolute favourite and savoured it. Then I went home. I was starving so I made a healthy lunch then had a snack later in the day. Then I made a huge stir fry, had another slice of fruit cake for dessert and that was that. Another successful day.

Sunday my dad took us out for breakfast. I was a little worried but decided to splurge. I ordered pancakes with banana and bacon. The serving was HUGE. I ate one of the two pancakes. Half the banana and all that bacon. For the second weekend in a row I left something on my plate. I covered it with a napkin so I wouldn't eat any more.

Things went ok for the rest of the time I was in Hobart. Not perfectly but within points. I had an unplanned beer and sausage at a friends fundraiser. The beer automatically made me want to eat a horse so I had one burrito when I got home and a slice of fruit cake. Then I decided to stop so I could still have something for dinner when I got home.

By the time I got into my flat I was exhausted - and here it goes down hill.

Recently I have managed to stop eating out of boredom and stop eating from stress. What I haven't mastered is stopping eating when I'm tired.

If I'd had to work the next day I probably would have had something to eat then gone to bed. But it was a public holiday and I felt entitled to stay up late! So I binged. And I'm so annoyed with myself - after all of the amazing effort I put in, I consumed about 15 points in one night.

I had;

3 toasted sandwhiches. One with baked beans and cheese the other with brown sugar
nestle diet yogurt with muesli
Popcorn with honey and too much salt

You know; writing that down it doesn't seem as bad as I remember. But I definitely feel bloated this morning (this might also be due to my getting my period) so actually, maybe it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Huh. Maybe if I'd just written this down last night instead of calling "too tired" to do anything but eat I could have stopped myself earlier. What a silly duffa.

I have planned out the rest of my day food and activity wise as well as the rest of my week and have made it so i save enough points to even out. Even if I do go up to 19 points everyday I wont kick myself because really, I was so successful this weekend! I feel like if I can survive a weekend at my parents without binging I can do anything. I can eat just 14-15 points every day and exercise to make up for the binge I had last night. I can get my life together this week and see a big loss at my next meeting!!

Ticking things off

Pre-planning my day via this blog yesterday worked wonders. Writing everything out in advance and how I would react in certain situations was a real comfort. I knew exactly what I should be eating when and really enjoyed writing [DONE] in green next to everything I accomplished.

It worked so well, in fact, that I plan to do it again today! And tomorrow, and Saturday and Sunday at least (I think it's going ot be incredibly helpful when I'm at my parents on the weekend).

So here goes for today.

5.40am: I wake up and get dressed for the gym and head to circuit. My ankle is still a little stiff so I avoid anything that puts direct impact on it (like running or walking on the treadmill) but do everything else. [DIDN'T DO]

7.00am: I arrive home and jump on the bike for 30 minutes. I drink a big bottle of water. [DIDN'T DO]

7.30am: I jump in the shower and think about breakfast [DONE]

8.00am: Banana and apple oats 2.5 points [DONE]

10.00am: Arrive at work and pour a big glass of water [DONE]

11.00am: I eat an apricot oat bran muffin and have a cup of tea, 2 points [DONE - early - i was starving]

12.00pm: I have another 2 glasses of water before lunch

1.30pm: I have bought a can of soup and two slices of bread from home. I toast the bread and heat up the soup for lunch - 5 points [DONE - early again]

2.00pm: Back from my lunch break I have a glass of water. I have 3 in total before afternoon tea [NOT DONE]

4.00pm: Mueslie and Yogurt - my trusted favourites - 3 points [DONE]

6.30pm: I cook up some wholemeal pasta, add peas and some grated parmesan for dinner (5 points) then head off to band practise [NOT DONE - had a burrito and dessert crapes instead]

10.30pm: arrive back from band practise. Way too tired to do any extra exercise - head straight to bed! [DONE]

Getting control

I feel like I really need to get some control back. The scale is way up this morning thanks to three days with binge eating and little exercise. It's very frustrating! So today I'm writing my day in advance as a little positive thinking. This is how things will go!

7.30am: Eat breakfast before heading out to meet a friend for coffee 2.5 points [DONE]

8.15am: Drink skinny tea but do not eat any food at a cafe [DONE]

10.00am: Grab a glass of water! [DONE]

11.00am: Have my oat bran muffin 2 points) and a cup of tea for morning tea to ensure I'm full up until lunch. Drink another glass of water. 3 in total before lunch. [DONE]

2.00pm: Lunch time! Shepherd's pie again, 4 points, plus a glass of water. Walk to target to pay off a layby and then walk back. 20 minutes in total. [DONE]

3.00pm: Drink another 3 glass of water: [DONE]

4.00pm: Muesli and yogurt for afternoon tea, 3 points.: [DONE]

6.30pm: Dinner time. Soup and bread - 5 points. No dessert as I'm rushing out the door for band practise [DONE]

10.00pm: Get home from band practise do 30 hard core minutes on the bike before showering and heading to bed. [NOT DONE]

So I managed to get all done except for my evening exercise. I should have known i wouldn't feel like it at 10.30pm. At least I did an hour of walking and to save money tomorrow I plan to walk to work.

Making amends

Due to a still swollen ankle and consumption of beer last night I didn't make it to boxing circuit this morning. I'm not in much pain but my ankle is still fat and swollen. I thought maybe I could walk the 60 minutes to work but decided against that as well.

Instead my exercise for today will be 40 minutes on the bike and some strength training.

7.30am: Banana apple oats 2.5 points

10.30am: Apricot oat bran muffin 2 points

1.30pm: Shepherd's pie 4 points

3.30pm: Yogurt and Mueslie 3 points

6.30pm: Burrito for dinner. Then I feel a binge begin. I have a vegemite sandwhich and pancakes with maple syrup and some dried apricots. So much better than yesterday. 10 points

Why did I binge? I am sad, lonely, confused, empty. I miss my ex, I miss my friends, I'm stressed at work, I'm worried about my mu. I can feel a physical emptiness in my stomach and I want to fill it. Even now.

I jumped on the bike for 20 minutes and that curbed it. I cried a lot. I talked to a friend online. Now I'm writing here

Total points eaten: 21.5 points
Total points earnt: 2.5 points

So, so tired

Yup, today I am tired. *Really* tired. This is a big emotional trigger for me and as a result I've been really hungry all day.

I woke up at 3am to less than savoury sounds coming from my neighbours. All I can say is I hope she enjoyed herself. The big issue, though, was my ankle. After rolling it last night I thought it was ok. i managed to play the rest of the game of futsal and walk home after all!

At 3am it was swollen and I couldn't move it. I hobled to the bathroom in search of painkillers (no luck) and by the time I got back in bed and elevated my foot I was almost crying from the pain. All I coudl think about what how yet again, as soon as I got back into exercise my body rebelled!

Thankfully when I woke up this morning I was able to walk again. My foot is still quite tender and I can't move it quite as much as normal but I shoudl be ready for some light exercise and might even make it to boxing circuit tomorrow. Though I think I'll leave the skipping for a week.

Weigh in Saturday: I am down to 68.5kg. I was very happy for this. It's only 100 grams loss since I started but I'm back on track!

This week's topic was all about planning. I'm a really good planner. I usually work out my week's food and exercise in advance, make concessions for eating out and I'm great at tracking. So I really had to think about how I could be an even better planner!

On Friday I'm heading to my mum and dad's. I have never *ever* in my whole time doing WW been able to stay on plan when I go away. Not only that but I usually end up severely binging.

So on my little post-it note I wrote down how I would prepare for a weekend away

1) Email my mum before I arrive asking her to hide the peanut butter, chocolates and other treats
2) Offer to cook both dinner's for my mum while I'm there so we don't eat out or order in. Email her the shopping list in advance including snacks and breakfasts
3) Track before I leave and stick to it
4) Plan for 2 1 hour walks
5) Don't visit friends during meal time - have cups of tea or go for a drive. No food with friends allowed

So far I've emailed my mum and worked out my meals. I'm just about to track all my food and exercise in advance for the week which I didn't have time to dow th my friend over at the weekend.

Despite being tired and cranky today I'm feeling really positive about this

And now for today's food

8.00am: At 3m I really felt like pancakes so I decided to make some wholemeal pancakes with honey for breakfast and had a handful of dried apricots to fill me up, 5 points

11.00am: Muesli and yogurt 3 points

1.00pm: I was *so* hungry today I could barely wait for lunch. I had some left over shepherd's pie and then ate my bran mufin for dessert (which I was meant to have for afternoon tea)

4.15pm: Usually I would have a snack now. I'm starving. I'm going to go and pour myself a bit glass of water. I am not at all productive today. I'm to tired. I'm just doing little bits and pieces and saving all the big stuff for tomorrow. I'll use this time to plan and organise my desk. I only have to make it to 6pm without raiding the charity chocolates.

6.30pm: I make it almost home without breaking my fast-until-dinner. I run into a stressed-out friend and take her for a beer. 3 beers (4.5 points) later I'm heading home.

7.00pm: Commence the slightly tipsy mini binge. I have two slices of leftover Crust pizza (3.5points) Two slices of bread with vegie mite (3 points) 2 serves of wholemeal pancakes (3 points)

Total points eaten: 28/19
Points earnt: 0

Not a great day but that binge wasn't too bad. Will report tomorrow!

Weekend Recap

Hi All!

I had such a wonderful weekend with one of my besties. As i mentioned in the Friday post, we're both trying to loose weight so we were a great support for each other while still making sure we enjoyed some good Melbourne food while she was over.

Saturday was definitely our best day. We went out for breakfast and I ordered Bircher Muesli and a cup of tea. It was a big breakfast and held me over right until my early (very early) 4.30pm dinner! We were heading to roller derby quite early so we know we needed something filling early on to last us all night.

We went to a pretty sub par chinese restaurant on Bourke St. We ordered one entree of spring rolls to share - 3 in total. Quite small which is good. I then had pork ribs with rice. I ate about 1/3 of the rice they dished up (about 1/2 cup if that) and then about 3/4 of the pork. It wasn't amazing and I wanted desert so I figured why fill up?

I then ordered deep fried ice cream. It was pretty atrocious - I ate about half before giving up.

Now - none of this food was disgusting. In the past I would have eaten every last morsel and made myself sick. I was *so* proud of myself for only eating until I was full.

Sunday I cooked us up some french toast - WW friendly of course then popped a couple of dried apricots before we head off to the museum for a look around. We tried to walk as much as possible while she was over and easily clocked up an hour today.

On the way back we were starving and craving dumplings. We stopped by a local chinese place and had two pork and two prawn dumplings each as well as two lovely dim sums. Only about 6 points all up.

Then I had a walk to and fron futsal and the match. I managed to roll my ankle. But I played on and didn't think I'd done much damage.

We went home and ordered a Crust Tick pizza to share and a garlic starter pizza (I ate half of each).

I then woke up at 3am in agony - my ankle was fucked! thankfully when I woke at 8am I was much better.

Anyway

Saturday - points eaten 25 - points earnt 3
Sunday - points eaten 30 - points earnt 8

Friday on my mind

This week has progressed really slowly. I can't wait for this weekend! One of my best friends Jo arrives. We havne't hung out properly in ages and I'm looking forward to some quality time with her.

7.00am: Wake up and get straight into my gym gear for the bike. I do some shadow boxing, sit ups and push ups to warm up then 10 minutes of intervals on the bike. Then I do push ups, squats, dips and sit ups and another 10 minutes on the bike then finish with more of the same. I do 30 minutes in the end. Had aimed for 50 but will make that up by walking to work this morning. It's such a gorgeous day!

8.00am: Usual porridge. 3 points.



11.00am: I bought in some fruit, from memory. I wanted to have something light. .5 points.

1.00pm: Pizza for lunch with a friend,.. I planned for this by not bringing in any snacks today

4.00pm: Something about pizza just makes me want to pig out on junk food. I have 4 mini chocolates

6.30pm: 2 x vegie burritos for dinner - 8 points

9.00pm onwards: Lots of beer. Lots. I lost count

Points spent: Who knows!
Points earnt: 6.5 points

I managed lots of exercise so I was happy with that. And boy did I have fun Friday. I rarely drink to get drunk so I don't mind when I slip up occasionally. I remember have a big conversation with my guest about losing weight. She's currently trying to shift 30kgs and we managed to be great support on the night. Went home and slept without a kebab or chocolate in my belly. I was proud!

Motivation rewind

I had a late night after the movies so I struggled to get out of bed today. I completely ignored my 5.40 alarm for circuit and then ignore my bike. thankfully I have a relatively free evening tonight and can squeeze in 30-40 minutes on the bike and then have a bigger workout tomorrow

7.30am: Breakfast! 3 points. Lovely porridge. Clean my house top to bottom

11.20am: Apricot bran muffin 2 points

2.00pm: time for lunch. I have what's left of my chicken and corn soup from yesterday as well as two slices of toast with spread. 6 points.

4.30pm: Afternoon tea is my trust yogurt and muesli, 3 points. Then later on I found the Fruitsies from ALdi in my drawer and I couldn't say no so I had one. 1 point

6.30pm: Did 20 minutes on the bike.

7.30pm: Ate some shepherd's pie. Hadn't planned on a big dinner but I was really hungry after the biking. 4 points. Then I started to feel like binging. I had about 6 dried apricots and a plum. I really wanted something else, something savoury, but I managed to keep myself busy and avoided it. 1.5 points.

Points eaten: 20
Points earned: 1