I've decided to take a sick day today. Usually I only do that when I'm on death's door, but I'm determined not to be down and out for a week so despite feeling extremely guilty, i'm off for the day. I plan on napping, drinking lots of tea and taking vitamins, tidying my house when I have the energy and eating on plan!
I'll report back and let you know how it's all going.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
A to Z of motivation
I'm really struggling to be motivated at the moment. With everything that's going on in my life, I feel like I've just given up even trying. I'm plodding along, not really gaining weight but not loosing either, and I feel disappointed.
I typed "motivation" into the WW search engine and came up with the A-Z list of motivation and have decided to create my own personalised motivation plan, based on theirs. I plan to put this into action in the month of May to see if it makes any difference!
Action 1 Adapt your food plan
I find things work best for me when I cook my meals in advance and ensure that they have all of the nutrients I need. I also need to have something that feels like a treat, but isn't. In the first 6 months of WW I would come back from my meeting, plan all my meals and then go shopping. I will start doing this again in the month of May (starting from this Saturday, the 1st).
3 meals + 1 baked good + desserts
Action 2 Be specific
WW says; "Be specific about your goals. How will you feel when you've achieved them? What will you see? What will you hear?"
I will feel proud of myself when I acheieve them. I will feel like I worked hard to make changes that I can keep for life. Worked hard to find things that don't feel like hard work. I will look in the mirror and feel content with what I see. I will hear my friends complimenting me again on how I look. I will feel strong and confident not just because I'm thinner, but because I acheived what I set out to and invested time and effort in myself.
Action 3 - Create small goals and rewards
Since gaining all this weight recently all I can think about is that 64.8kg I once saw on my home scales. I need to forget about that. That's the past. I need to go back to my usual weekly goal of 500 g.
Action 4 - Do something different
WW says; "If you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got. So if what you're doing isn't working, do something different."
I need to identify what isn't working and fix it. What isn't working is being able to resist the candy box, being able to motivate myself for exercise, getting complacent?
How will I fix it?
I actually think I've done a pretty good job at this already and my life has changed considerably - it's just sticking to them. There are a few things I've done in the past that have worked for me but I haven't kept them up lately. In May I will work the following into my routine
Saying no is a big issue for me. Especially when it comes to food, and more recently, booze!
Action 7 Get Help
I need a support group. I need WW meetings, they really work for me. I also need an exercise partner!
Action 8 Have fun
Winter is approaching which is a sure-fire way to stay at home and eat myself fat. I wont do that this winter.
WW says; "Practise new behaviours until they become habits – it takes approximately 21 'repeats' for something to become a habit"
I find that journalling, calling a friend and going for a walk are my three top ways of dealing with extreme emotions.
This means finding substitutes or ways to satisfy cravings. I do this a lot with exercise - I can skip the gym but only if I clean my house top-to-bottom - that sort of thing. And with food I'll substitute popcorn if I want to binge because it means I get to eat for a long period of time without consuming too many points. I will continue to do this!
Action 13 Overcome setbacks.
If I make a mistake, I will not allow it to lead to a ginge or complete break down
Action 14 Plan ahead
Plan and shop for my meals Saturday morning after WW meeting, no excuses.
Action 15 Quit unhelpful habits
My biggest unhelpful habit is TV. Put me in front of one, and you're almost garunteed a binge.
Ok I find this a bit naff.
Here are my goals in the positive
I'm already pretty good at this but;
No issue there - but;
Wish me luck!
I typed "motivation" into the WW search engine and came up with the A-Z list of motivation and have decided to create my own personalised motivation plan, based on theirs. I plan to put this into action in the month of May to see if it makes any difference!
Action 1 Adapt your food plan
I find things work best for me when I cook my meals in advance and ensure that they have all of the nutrients I need. I also need to have something that feels like a treat, but isn't. In the first 6 months of WW I would come back from my meeting, plan all my meals and then go shopping. I will start doing this again in the month of May (starting from this Saturday, the 1st).
3 meals + 1 baked good + desserts
Action 2 Be specific
WW says; "Be specific about your goals. How will you feel when you've achieved them? What will you see? What will you hear?"
I will feel proud of myself when I acheieve them. I will feel like I worked hard to make changes that I can keep for life. Worked hard to find things that don't feel like hard work. I will look in the mirror and feel content with what I see. I will hear my friends complimenting me again on how I look. I will feel strong and confident not just because I'm thinner, but because I acheived what I set out to and invested time and effort in myself.
Action 3 - Create small goals and rewards
Since gaining all this weight recently all I can think about is that 64.8kg I once saw on my home scales. I need to forget about that. That's the past. I need to go back to my usual weekly goal of 500 g.
- Goal 1: 68kg Reward: Magazine
- Goal 2: 67.5kg Reward: Bikini Wax
- Goal 4: 67kg Reward: Chinese massage
- Goal 5: 66.5kg: Reward: New make up
- Goal 6: 66 kg: Reward: New shoes
Action 4 - Do something different
WW says; "If you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got. So if what you're doing isn't working, do something different."
I need to identify what isn't working and fix it. What isn't working is being able to resist the candy box, being able to motivate myself for exercise, getting complacent?
How will I fix it?
- Bring 0 point snacks to work so I always have something to munch on.
- Research exercise bike training programs so I have a goal to work towards
- Repeat to myself that it is not good enough to skip exercise and eat candy!
I actually think I've done a pretty good job at this already and my life has changed considerably - it's just sticking to them. There are a few things I've done in the past that have worked for me but I haven't kept them up lately. In May I will work the following into my routine
- Washing up straight after dinner as this stops be from binge eating and lowers my house-mess related stress levels
- Brush my teeth straight after dinner - great for binging and also good for dental hygiene
- Go for a walk straight after lunch at work - to keep me away from the candy box
Saying no is a big issue for me. Especially when it comes to food, and more recently, booze!
- My only goal here really, is to say "No, thank you" to anything that isn't on plan. And be confident about it!
Action 7 Get Help
I need a support group. I need WW meetings, they really work for me. I also need an exercise partner!
- My goal in May is to start one personal training session a week with Lee.
Action 8 Have fun
Winter is approaching which is a sure-fire way to stay at home and eat myself fat. I wont do that this winter.
- My goal in May is to spend Saturday out and about visiting at least 1 friend.
- Another goal is to get back into Sunday morning yoga
- In May I will promise my mum I will call in once a week with my weight and to have a chat - another lifeline will definitely help!
- Money is another big one, I need to put away a little cash every week for my reward. I will put away $20 in an envelope every week specifically for that purpose
- In the month of May I will not miss one single WW meeting
- In May, I will not give up
WW says; "Practise new behaviours until they become habits – it takes approximately 21 'repeats' for something to become a habit"
- My first 21 day goal will be to drink 4 glasses of water before I leave the house in the morning
- My second day goal will to be to not binge eat for 21 days employing the washing up/brushing teeth straight after dinner method
I find that journalling, calling a friend and going for a walk are my three top ways of dealing with extreme emotions.
- In May I will adopt the saying "write, walk, call" for anytime I feel stressed or upset, rather than eating
This means finding substitutes or ways to satisfy cravings. I do this a lot with exercise - I can skip the gym but only if I clean my house top-to-bottom - that sort of thing. And with food I'll substitute popcorn if I want to binge because it means I get to eat for a long period of time without consuming too many points. I will continue to do this!
Action 13 Overcome setbacks.
If I make a mistake, I will not allow it to lead to a ginge or complete break down
Action 14 Plan ahead
Plan and shop for my meals Saturday morning after WW meeting, no excuses.
Action 15 Quit unhelpful habits
My biggest unhelpful habit is TV. Put me in front of one, and you're almost garunteed a binge.
- In May I will live without my TV for a month
Ok I find this a bit naff.
- Instead in May I will read one WW Motivation story per night
Here are my goals in the positive
- I want to be happy with my body
- I want to feel strong
- I want to feel proud of myself
- I will think "what would a thin person do"
I'm already pretty good at this but;
- In May I will track everything I eat, every day
- When I wake up in the morning I will spend 5 minutes thinking about what I would look like slim
No issue there - but;
- I will put away my scales and *only* weigh myself once a week.
- I will try 1 new recipe or product every week
- Each day on this blog I will write down one positive thing I have done, no matter how bad the day has been
Wish me luck!
Waiting for an awesome day
I haven't had a really truly awesome day on plan for a while.
I remember for about 6 months or so last year I was doing so well. Eating the points I should every day, exercising without fail.
But for the past 6 months it seems to be one thing after another that's preventing me from getting where I want to be. Some of those things are out of my control. Others, actually most, are not.
It all started when I turned 26. An age that my ex boyfriends best friend always said would be the worst year of your life. My ex, who just turned 27 two days ago, agreed, and is excited to finally be able to put the last 12 months behind him.
Since I turned 26 I have gained, lost and gained again 5kgs. spent a snowing freezing cold winter in Dublin and then Paris, where unprecedented snow put a huge dent in the image I had of Paris and made me hate public transport even more. I broke up with my boyfriend. My mother was diagnosed with cancer. I sprained my ankle. I've been sick more times than I care to remember. I moved into a flat by myself and while it's fantastic, I can now barely afford to eat.
I have done *very* well at not using any of the above as an excuse to over eat. Apart from illness and a sprained ankle keeping me away from the gym, I've generally remained quite positive.
But I tell you what, my patience is wearing thin.
After waking up this morning with a tickle in my throat, after being so proud I made it back to the gym yesterday, I could barely stay on my exercise bike this morning for more than 5 minutes. Will someone please give me a break?
Ok, time to regroup and work out how to fix this.
Firstly, unlike every other time I feel like I'm getting sick, I'm not going to ignore it. As soon as I finish this post I'm off to run some errands. While out I'll pick up some cheap cold and flu tablets and some echinacea and orange juice for vitamin c. Sure, I can't really afford it, but I can't really afford to be sick either.
I will *not* resort to eating. when I get sick I genuinly feel hungry all. the. time. I am a bottomless pit! But I don't want to gain 2 kgs before the weekend (when I'll be back at WW and was *hoping* for a mammoth loss but I feel like that's a pipe dream now).
I will keep slugging away, I wont use anything that's happened in the last year as an excuse to undo all my good work.
I will remember how awesome I feel when I'm fit, active, eating well and getting smaller. I don't care if I never make goal, I want to feel good! Forever!
I remember for about 6 months or so last year I was doing so well. Eating the points I should every day, exercising without fail.
But for the past 6 months it seems to be one thing after another that's preventing me from getting where I want to be. Some of those things are out of my control. Others, actually most, are not.
It all started when I turned 26. An age that my ex boyfriends best friend always said would be the worst year of your life. My ex, who just turned 27 two days ago, agreed, and is excited to finally be able to put the last 12 months behind him.
Since I turned 26 I have gained, lost and gained again 5kgs. spent a snowing freezing cold winter in Dublin and then Paris, where unprecedented snow put a huge dent in the image I had of Paris and made me hate public transport even more. I broke up with my boyfriend. My mother was diagnosed with cancer. I sprained my ankle. I've been sick more times than I care to remember. I moved into a flat by myself and while it's fantastic, I can now barely afford to eat.
I have done *very* well at not using any of the above as an excuse to over eat. Apart from illness and a sprained ankle keeping me away from the gym, I've generally remained quite positive.
But I tell you what, my patience is wearing thin.
After waking up this morning with a tickle in my throat, after being so proud I made it back to the gym yesterday, I could barely stay on my exercise bike this morning for more than 5 minutes. Will someone please give me a break?
Ok, time to regroup and work out how to fix this.
Firstly, unlike every other time I feel like I'm getting sick, I'm not going to ignore it. As soon as I finish this post I'm off to run some errands. While out I'll pick up some cheap cold and flu tablets and some echinacea and orange juice for vitamin c. Sure, I can't really afford it, but I can't really afford to be sick either.
I will *not* resort to eating. when I get sick I genuinly feel hungry all. the. time. I am a bottomless pit! But I don't want to gain 2 kgs before the weekend (when I'll be back at WW and was *hoping* for a mammoth loss but I feel like that's a pipe dream now).
I will keep slugging away, I wont use anything that's happened in the last year as an excuse to undo all my good work.
I will remember how awesome I feel when I'm fit, active, eating well and getting smaller. I don't care if I never make goal, I want to feel good! Forever!
Monday, April 26, 2010
Such a fantastic weekend...until
This weekend I went and visited my parents in Hobart.
I was 100% determined for this to be a successful weekend food-wise. So, taking advice from my last weight watchers meeting, I planned the shit out of it.
As I mentioned in a previous post, I got my mum to hide all of the chocolate, biscuits and peanut butter. Then I offered to cook her dinner both nights. Then, I planned everything I was going to eat, leaving myself a couple of extra points for the odd treat. It was a holiday after all.
Friday was day 1. I managed to forget my snack for the airport, but I deliberately didn't carry any money so I avoided a snack. In fact, despite having breakfast at 7am, I managed to make it through until 2pm with nothing to eat! It was so late in the day by the time I got to my parents house that I skipped lunch all together and just had my two snacks.
I made burritos for dinner and allowed myself to have the 2 I planned for. I could have easily had more but I put everything straight into the fridge so I wasn't tempted.
Then I had a slice of my mum's healthy fruit cake she had made for me.
I felt *very* tempted to binge that night. I was so used to eating constantly when I was at my mum's house that it felt weird not to. I was fidgety, I drank tonnes of water, but ultimately I went to bed early and managed to not binge. And I felt *great*
The next day I made a double pot of oats for my mum and me for breakfast. Then I went out to visit my friend in her new house. She offered tea and biscuits. In the past I would have eaten 3, 4, 5 biscuits. Instead I ate one. I chose my absolute favourite and savoured it. Then I went home. I was starving so I made a healthy lunch then had a snack later in the day. Then I made a huge stir fry, had another slice of fruit cake for dessert and that was that. Another successful day.
Sunday my dad took us out for breakfast. I was a little worried but decided to splurge. I ordered pancakes with banana and bacon. The serving was HUGE. I ate one of the two pancakes. Half the banana and all that bacon. For the second weekend in a row I left something on my plate. I covered it with a napkin so I wouldn't eat any more.
Things went ok for the rest of the time I was in Hobart. Not perfectly but within points. I had an unplanned beer and sausage at a friends fundraiser. The beer automatically made me want to eat a horse so I had one burrito when I got home and a slice of fruit cake. Then I decided to stop so I could still have something for dinner when I got home.
By the time I got into my flat I was exhausted - and here it goes down hill.
Recently I have managed to stop eating out of boredom and stop eating from stress. What I haven't mastered is stopping eating when I'm tired.
If I'd had to work the next day I probably would have had something to eat then gone to bed. But it was a public holiday and I felt entitled to stay up late! So I binged. And I'm so annoyed with myself - after all of the amazing effort I put in, I consumed about 15 points in one night.
I had;
3 toasted sandwhiches. One with baked beans and cheese the other with brown sugar
nestle diet yogurt with muesli
Popcorn with honey and too much salt
You know; writing that down it doesn't seem as bad as I remember. But I definitely feel bloated this morning (this might also be due to my getting my period) so actually, maybe it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Huh. Maybe if I'd just written this down last night instead of calling "too tired" to do anything but eat I could have stopped myself earlier. What a silly duffa.
I have planned out the rest of my day food and activity wise as well as the rest of my week and have made it so i save enough points to even out. Even if I do go up to 19 points everyday I wont kick myself because really, I was so successful this weekend! I feel like if I can survive a weekend at my parents without binging I can do anything. I can eat just 14-15 points every day and exercise to make up for the binge I had last night. I can get my life together this week and see a big loss at my next meeting!!
I was 100% determined for this to be a successful weekend food-wise. So, taking advice from my last weight watchers meeting, I planned the shit out of it.
As I mentioned in a previous post, I got my mum to hide all of the chocolate, biscuits and peanut butter. Then I offered to cook her dinner both nights. Then, I planned everything I was going to eat, leaving myself a couple of extra points for the odd treat. It was a holiday after all.
Friday was day 1. I managed to forget my snack for the airport, but I deliberately didn't carry any money so I avoided a snack. In fact, despite having breakfast at 7am, I managed to make it through until 2pm with nothing to eat! It was so late in the day by the time I got to my parents house that I skipped lunch all together and just had my two snacks.
I made burritos for dinner and allowed myself to have the 2 I planned for. I could have easily had more but I put everything straight into the fridge so I wasn't tempted.
Then I had a slice of my mum's healthy fruit cake she had made for me.
I felt *very* tempted to binge that night. I was so used to eating constantly when I was at my mum's house that it felt weird not to. I was fidgety, I drank tonnes of water, but ultimately I went to bed early and managed to not binge. And I felt *great*
The next day I made a double pot of oats for my mum and me for breakfast. Then I went out to visit my friend in her new house. She offered tea and biscuits. In the past I would have eaten 3, 4, 5 biscuits. Instead I ate one. I chose my absolute favourite and savoured it. Then I went home. I was starving so I made a healthy lunch then had a snack later in the day. Then I made a huge stir fry, had another slice of fruit cake for dessert and that was that. Another successful day.
Sunday my dad took us out for breakfast. I was a little worried but decided to splurge. I ordered pancakes with banana and bacon. The serving was HUGE. I ate one of the two pancakes. Half the banana and all that bacon. For the second weekend in a row I left something on my plate. I covered it with a napkin so I wouldn't eat any more.
Things went ok for the rest of the time I was in Hobart. Not perfectly but within points. I had an unplanned beer and sausage at a friends fundraiser. The beer automatically made me want to eat a horse so I had one burrito when I got home and a slice of fruit cake. Then I decided to stop so I could still have something for dinner when I got home.
By the time I got into my flat I was exhausted - and here it goes down hill.
Recently I have managed to stop eating out of boredom and stop eating from stress. What I haven't mastered is stopping eating when I'm tired.
If I'd had to work the next day I probably would have had something to eat then gone to bed. But it was a public holiday and I felt entitled to stay up late! So I binged. And I'm so annoyed with myself - after all of the amazing effort I put in, I consumed about 15 points in one night.
I had;
3 toasted sandwhiches. One with baked beans and cheese the other with brown sugar
nestle diet yogurt with muesli
Popcorn with honey and too much salt
You know; writing that down it doesn't seem as bad as I remember. But I definitely feel bloated this morning (this might also be due to my getting my period) so actually, maybe it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Huh. Maybe if I'd just written this down last night instead of calling "too tired" to do anything but eat I could have stopped myself earlier. What a silly duffa.
I have planned out the rest of my day food and activity wise as well as the rest of my week and have made it so i save enough points to even out. Even if I do go up to 19 points everyday I wont kick myself because really, I was so successful this weekend! I feel like if I can survive a weekend at my parents without binging I can do anything. I can eat just 14-15 points every day and exercise to make up for the binge I had last night. I can get my life together this week and see a big loss at my next meeting!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Ticking things off
Pre-planning my day via this blog yesterday worked wonders. Writing everything out in advance and how I would react in certain situations was a real comfort. I knew exactly what I should be eating when and really enjoyed writing [DONE] in green next to everything I accomplished.
It worked so well, in fact, that I plan to do it again today! And tomorrow, and Saturday and Sunday at least (I think it's going ot be incredibly helpful when I'm at my parents on the weekend).
So here goes for today.
5.40am: I wake up and get dressed for the gym and head to circuit. My ankle is still a little stiff so I avoid anything that puts direct impact on it (like running or walking on the treadmill) but do everything else. [DIDN'T DO]
7.00am: I arrive home and jump on the bike for 30 minutes. I drink a big bottle of water. [DIDN'T DO]
7.30am: I jump in the shower and think about breakfast [DONE]
8.00am: Banana and apple oats 2.5 points [DONE]
10.00am: Arrive at work and pour a big glass of water [DONE]
11.00am: I eat an apricot oat bran muffin and have a cup of tea, 2 points [DONE - early - i was starving]
12.00pm: I have another 2 glasses of water before lunch
1.30pm: I have bought a can of soup and two slices of bread from home. I toast the bread and heat up the soup for lunch - 5 points [DONE - early again]
2.00pm: Back from my lunch break I have a glass of water. I have 3 in total before afternoon tea [NOT DONE]
4.00pm: Mueslie and Yogurt - my trusted favourites - 3 points [DONE]
6.30pm: I cook up some wholemeal pasta, add peas and some grated parmesan for dinner (5 points) then head off to band practise [NOT DONE - had a burrito and dessert crapes instead]
10.30pm: arrive back from band practise. Way too tired to do any extra exercise - head straight to bed! [DONE]
It worked so well, in fact, that I plan to do it again today! And tomorrow, and Saturday and Sunday at least (I think it's going ot be incredibly helpful when I'm at my parents on the weekend).
So here goes for today.
5.40am: I wake up and get dressed for the gym and head to circuit. My ankle is still a little stiff so I avoid anything that puts direct impact on it (like running or walking on the treadmill) but do everything else. [DIDN'T DO]
7.00am: I arrive home and jump on the bike for 30 minutes. I drink a big bottle of water. [DIDN'T DO]
7.30am: I jump in the shower and think about breakfast [DONE]
8.00am: Banana and apple oats 2.5 points [DONE]
10.00am: Arrive at work and pour a big glass of water [DONE]
11.00am: I eat an apricot oat bran muffin and have a cup of tea, 2 points [DONE - early - i was starving]
12.00pm: I have another 2 glasses of water before lunch
1.30pm: I have bought a can of soup and two slices of bread from home. I toast the bread and heat up the soup for lunch - 5 points [DONE - early again]
2.00pm: Back from my lunch break I have a glass of water. I have 3 in total before afternoon tea [NOT DONE]
4.00pm: Mueslie and Yogurt - my trusted favourites - 3 points [DONE]
6.30pm: I cook up some wholemeal pasta, add peas and some grated parmesan for dinner (5 points) then head off to band practise [NOT DONE - had a burrito and dessert crapes instead]
10.30pm: arrive back from band practise. Way too tired to do any extra exercise - head straight to bed! [DONE]
Getting control
I feel like I really need to get some control back. The scale is way up this morning thanks to three days with binge eating and little exercise. It's very frustrating! So today I'm writing my day in advance as a little positive thinking. This is how things will go!
7.30am: Eat breakfast before heading out to meet a friend for coffee 2.5 points [DONE]
8.15am: Drink skinny tea but do not eat any food at a cafe [DONE]
10.00am: Grab a glass of water! [DONE]
11.00am: Have my oat bran muffin 2 points) and a cup of tea for morning tea to ensure I'm full up until lunch. Drink another glass of water. 3 in total before lunch. [DONE]
2.00pm: Lunch time! Shepherd's pie again, 4 points, plus a glass of water. Walk to target to pay off a layby and then walk back. 20 minutes in total. [DONE]
3.00pm: Drink another 3 glass of water: [DONE]
4.00pm: Muesli and yogurt for afternoon tea, 3 points.: [DONE]
6.30pm: Dinner time. Soup and bread - 5 points. No dessert as I'm rushing out the door for band practise [DONE]
10.00pm: Get home from band practise do 30 hard core minutes on the bike before showering and heading to bed. [NOT DONE]
So I managed to get all done except for my evening exercise. I should have known i wouldn't feel like it at 10.30pm. At least I did an hour of walking and to save money tomorrow I plan to walk to work.
7.30am: Eat breakfast before heading out to meet a friend for coffee 2.5 points [DONE]
8.15am: Drink skinny tea but do not eat any food at a cafe [DONE]
10.00am: Grab a glass of water! [DONE]
11.00am: Have my oat bran muffin 2 points) and a cup of tea for morning tea to ensure I'm full up until lunch. Drink another glass of water. 3 in total before lunch. [DONE]
2.00pm: Lunch time! Shepherd's pie again, 4 points, plus a glass of water. Walk to target to pay off a layby and then walk back. 20 minutes in total. [DONE]
3.00pm: Drink another 3 glass of water: [DONE]
4.00pm: Muesli and yogurt for afternoon tea, 3 points.: [DONE]
6.30pm: Dinner time. Soup and bread - 5 points. No dessert as I'm rushing out the door for band practise [DONE]
10.00pm: Get home from band practise do 30 hard core minutes on the bike before showering and heading to bed. [NOT DONE]
So I managed to get all done except for my evening exercise. I should have known i wouldn't feel like it at 10.30pm. At least I did an hour of walking and to save money tomorrow I plan to walk to work.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Making amends
Due to a still swollen ankle and consumption of beer last night I didn't make it to boxing circuit this morning. I'm not in much pain but my ankle is still fat and swollen. I thought maybe I could walk the 60 minutes to work but decided against that as well.
Instead my exercise for today will be 40 minutes on the bike and some strength training.
7.30am: Banana apple oats 2.5 points
10.30am: Apricot oat bran muffin 2 points
1.30pm: Shepherd's pie 4 points
3.30pm: Yogurt and Mueslie 3 points
6.30pm: Burrito for dinner. Then I feel a binge begin. I have a vegemite sandwhich and pancakes with maple syrup and some dried apricots. So much better than yesterday. 10 points
Why did I binge? I am sad, lonely, confused, empty. I miss my ex, I miss my friends, I'm stressed at work, I'm worried about my mu. I can feel a physical emptiness in my stomach and I want to fill it. Even now.
I jumped on the bike for 20 minutes and that curbed it. I cried a lot. I talked to a friend online. Now I'm writing here
Total points eaten: 21.5 points
Total points earnt: 2.5 points
Instead my exercise for today will be 40 minutes on the bike and some strength training.
7.30am: Banana apple oats 2.5 points
10.30am: Apricot oat bran muffin 2 points
1.30pm: Shepherd's pie 4 points
3.30pm: Yogurt and Mueslie 3 points
6.30pm: Burrito for dinner. Then I feel a binge begin. I have a vegemite sandwhich and pancakes with maple syrup and some dried apricots. So much better than yesterday. 10 points
Why did I binge? I am sad, lonely, confused, empty. I miss my ex, I miss my friends, I'm stressed at work, I'm worried about my mu. I can feel a physical emptiness in my stomach and I want to fill it. Even now.
I jumped on the bike for 20 minutes and that curbed it. I cried a lot. I talked to a friend online. Now I'm writing here
Total points eaten: 21.5 points
Total points earnt: 2.5 points
Monday, April 19, 2010
So, so tired
Yup, today I am tired. *Really* tired. This is a big emotional trigger for me and as a result I've been really hungry all day.
I woke up at 3am to less than savoury sounds coming from my neighbours. All I can say is I hope she enjoyed herself. The big issue, though, was my ankle. After rolling it last night I thought it was ok. i managed to play the rest of the game of futsal and walk home after all!
At 3am it was swollen and I couldn't move it. I hobled to the bathroom in search of painkillers (no luck) and by the time I got back in bed and elevated my foot I was almost crying from the pain. All I coudl think about what how yet again, as soon as I got back into exercise my body rebelled!
Thankfully when I woke up this morning I was able to walk again. My foot is still quite tender and I can't move it quite as much as normal but I shoudl be ready for some light exercise and might even make it to boxing circuit tomorrow. Though I think I'll leave the skipping for a week.
Weigh in Saturday: I am down to 68.5kg. I was very happy for this. It's only 100 grams loss since I started but I'm back on track!
This week's topic was all about planning. I'm a really good planner. I usually work out my week's food and exercise in advance, make concessions for eating out and I'm great at tracking. So I really had to think about how I could be an even better planner!
On Friday I'm heading to my mum and dad's. I have never *ever* in my whole time doing WW been able to stay on plan when I go away. Not only that but I usually end up severely binging.
So on my little post-it note I wrote down how I would prepare for a weekend away
1) Email my mum before I arrive asking her to hide the peanut butter, chocolates and other treats
2) Offer to cook both dinner's for my mum while I'm there so we don't eat out or order in. Email her the shopping list in advance including snacks and breakfasts
3) Track before I leave and stick to it
4) Plan for 2 1 hour walks
5) Don't visit friends during meal time - have cups of tea or go for a drive. No food with friends allowed
So far I've emailed my mum and worked out my meals. I'm just about to track all my food and exercise in advance for the week which I didn't have time to dow th my friend over at the weekend.
Despite being tired and cranky today I'm feeling really positive about this
And now for today's food
8.00am: At 3m I really felt like pancakes so I decided to make some wholemeal pancakes with honey for breakfast and had a handful of dried apricots to fill me up, 5 points
11.00am: Muesli and yogurt 3 points
1.00pm: I was *so* hungry today I could barely wait for lunch. I had some left over shepherd's pie and then ate my bran mufin for dessert (which I was meant to have for afternoon tea)
4.15pm: Usually I would have a snack now. I'm starving. I'm going to go and pour myself a bit glass of water. I am not at all productive today. I'm to tired. I'm just doing little bits and pieces and saving all the big stuff for tomorrow. I'll use this time to plan and organise my desk. I only have to make it to 6pm without raiding the charity chocolates.
6.30pm: I make it almost home without breaking my fast-until-dinner. I run into a stressed-out friend and take her for a beer. 3 beers (4.5 points) later I'm heading home.
7.00pm: Commence the slightly tipsy mini binge. I have two slices of leftover Crust pizza (3.5points) Two slices of bread with vegie mite (3 points) 2 serves of wholemeal pancakes (3 points)
Total points eaten: 28/19
Points earnt: 0
Not a great day but that binge wasn't too bad. Will report tomorrow!
I woke up at 3am to less than savoury sounds coming from my neighbours. All I can say is I hope she enjoyed herself. The big issue, though, was my ankle. After rolling it last night I thought it was ok. i managed to play the rest of the game of futsal and walk home after all!
At 3am it was swollen and I couldn't move it. I hobled to the bathroom in search of painkillers (no luck) and by the time I got back in bed and elevated my foot I was almost crying from the pain. All I coudl think about what how yet again, as soon as I got back into exercise my body rebelled!
Thankfully when I woke up this morning I was able to walk again. My foot is still quite tender and I can't move it quite as much as normal but I shoudl be ready for some light exercise and might even make it to boxing circuit tomorrow. Though I think I'll leave the skipping for a week.
Weigh in Saturday: I am down to 68.5kg. I was very happy for this. It's only 100 grams loss since I started but I'm back on track!
This week's topic was all about planning. I'm a really good planner. I usually work out my week's food and exercise in advance, make concessions for eating out and I'm great at tracking. So I really had to think about how I could be an even better planner!
On Friday I'm heading to my mum and dad's. I have never *ever* in my whole time doing WW been able to stay on plan when I go away. Not only that but I usually end up severely binging.
So on my little post-it note I wrote down how I would prepare for a weekend away
1) Email my mum before I arrive asking her to hide the peanut butter, chocolates and other treats
2) Offer to cook both dinner's for my mum while I'm there so we don't eat out or order in. Email her the shopping list in advance including snacks and breakfasts
3) Track before I leave and stick to it
4) Plan for 2 1 hour walks
5) Don't visit friends during meal time - have cups of tea or go for a drive. No food with friends allowed
So far I've emailed my mum and worked out my meals. I'm just about to track all my food and exercise in advance for the week which I didn't have time to dow th my friend over at the weekend.
Despite being tired and cranky today I'm feeling really positive about this
And now for today's food
8.00am: At 3m I really felt like pancakes so I decided to make some wholemeal pancakes with honey for breakfast and had a handful of dried apricots to fill me up, 5 points
11.00am: Muesli and yogurt 3 points
1.00pm: I was *so* hungry today I could barely wait for lunch. I had some left over shepherd's pie and then ate my bran mufin for dessert (which I was meant to have for afternoon tea)
4.15pm: Usually I would have a snack now. I'm starving. I'm going to go and pour myself a bit glass of water. I am not at all productive today. I'm to tired. I'm just doing little bits and pieces and saving all the big stuff for tomorrow. I'll use this time to plan and organise my desk. I only have to make it to 6pm without raiding the charity chocolates.
6.30pm: I make it almost home without breaking my fast-until-dinner. I run into a stressed-out friend and take her for a beer. 3 beers (4.5 points) later I'm heading home.
7.00pm: Commence the slightly tipsy mini binge. I have two slices of leftover Crust pizza (3.5points) Two slices of bread with vegie mite (3 points) 2 serves of wholemeal pancakes (3 points)
Total points eaten: 28/19
Points earnt: 0
Not a great day but that binge wasn't too bad. Will report tomorrow!
Weekend Recap
Hi All!
I had such a wonderful weekend with one of my besties. As i mentioned in the Friday post, we're both trying to loose weight so we were a great support for each other while still making sure we enjoyed some good Melbourne food while she was over.
Saturday was definitely our best day. We went out for breakfast and I ordered Bircher Muesli and a cup of tea. It was a big breakfast and held me over right until my early (very early) 4.30pm dinner! We were heading to roller derby quite early so we know we needed something filling early on to last us all night.
We went to a pretty sub par chinese restaurant on Bourke St. We ordered one entree of spring rolls to share - 3 in total. Quite small which is good. I then had pork ribs with rice. I ate about 1/3 of the rice they dished up (about 1/2 cup if that) and then about 3/4 of the pork. It wasn't amazing and I wanted desert so I figured why fill up?
I then ordered deep fried ice cream. It was pretty atrocious - I ate about half before giving up.
Now - none of this food was disgusting. In the past I would have eaten every last morsel and made myself sick. I was *so* proud of myself for only eating until I was full.
Sunday I cooked us up some french toast - WW friendly of course then popped a couple of dried apricots before we head off to the museum for a look around. We tried to walk as much as possible while she was over and easily clocked up an hour today.
On the way back we were starving and craving dumplings. We stopped by a local chinese place and had two pork and two prawn dumplings each as well as two lovely dim sums. Only about 6 points all up.
Then I had a walk to and fron futsal and the match. I managed to roll my ankle. But I played on and didn't think I'd done much damage.
We went home and ordered a Crust Tick pizza to share and a garlic starter pizza (I ate half of each).
I then woke up at 3am in agony - my ankle was fucked! thankfully when I woke at 8am I was much better.
Anyway
Saturday - points eaten 25 - points earnt 3
Sunday - points eaten 30 - points earnt 8
I had such a wonderful weekend with one of my besties. As i mentioned in the Friday post, we're both trying to loose weight so we were a great support for each other while still making sure we enjoyed some good Melbourne food while she was over.
Saturday was definitely our best day. We went out for breakfast and I ordered Bircher Muesli and a cup of tea. It was a big breakfast and held me over right until my early (very early) 4.30pm dinner! We were heading to roller derby quite early so we know we needed something filling early on to last us all night.
We went to a pretty sub par chinese restaurant on Bourke St. We ordered one entree of spring rolls to share - 3 in total. Quite small which is good. I then had pork ribs with rice. I ate about 1/3 of the rice they dished up (about 1/2 cup if that) and then about 3/4 of the pork. It wasn't amazing and I wanted desert so I figured why fill up?
I then ordered deep fried ice cream. It was pretty atrocious - I ate about half before giving up.
Now - none of this food was disgusting. In the past I would have eaten every last morsel and made myself sick. I was *so* proud of myself for only eating until I was full.
Sunday I cooked us up some french toast - WW friendly of course then popped a couple of dried apricots before we head off to the museum for a look around. We tried to walk as much as possible while she was over and easily clocked up an hour today.
On the way back we were starving and craving dumplings. We stopped by a local chinese place and had two pork and two prawn dumplings each as well as two lovely dim sums. Only about 6 points all up.
Then I had a walk to and fron futsal and the match. I managed to roll my ankle. But I played on and didn't think I'd done much damage.
We went home and ordered a Crust Tick pizza to share and a garlic starter pizza (I ate half of each).
I then woke up at 3am in agony - my ankle was fucked! thankfully when I woke at 8am I was much better.
Anyway
Saturday - points eaten 25 - points earnt 3
Sunday - points eaten 30 - points earnt 8
Friday, April 16, 2010
Friday on my mind
This week has progressed really slowly. I can't wait for this weekend! One of my best friends Jo arrives. We havne't hung out properly in ages and I'm looking forward to some quality time with her.
7.00am: Wake up and get straight into my gym gear for the bike. I do some shadow boxing, sit ups and push ups to warm up then 10 minutes of intervals on the bike. Then I do push ups, squats, dips and sit ups and another 10 minutes on the bike then finish with more of the same. I do 30 minutes in the end. Had aimed for 50 but will make that up by walking to work this morning. It's such a gorgeous day!
8.00am: Usual porridge. 3 points.
11.00am: I bought in some fruit, from memory. I wanted to have something light. .5 points.
1.00pm: Pizza for lunch with a friend,.. I planned for this by not bringing in any snacks today
4.00pm: Something about pizza just makes me want to pig out on junk food. I have 4 mini chocolates
6.30pm: 2 x vegie burritos for dinner - 8 points
9.00pm onwards: Lots of beer. Lots. I lost count
Points spent: Who knows!
Points earnt: 6.5 points
I managed lots of exercise so I was happy with that. And boy did I have fun Friday. I rarely drink to get drunk so I don't mind when I slip up occasionally. I remember have a big conversation with my guest about losing weight. She's currently trying to shift 30kgs and we managed to be great support on the night. Went home and slept without a kebab or chocolate in my belly. I was proud!
7.00am: Wake up and get straight into my gym gear for the bike. I do some shadow boxing, sit ups and push ups to warm up then 10 minutes of intervals on the bike. Then I do push ups, squats, dips and sit ups and another 10 minutes on the bike then finish with more of the same. I do 30 minutes in the end. Had aimed for 50 but will make that up by walking to work this morning. It's such a gorgeous day!
8.00am: Usual porridge. 3 points.
11.00am: I bought in some fruit, from memory. I wanted to have something light. .5 points.
1.00pm: Pizza for lunch with a friend,.. I planned for this by not bringing in any snacks today
4.00pm: Something about pizza just makes me want to pig out on junk food. I have 4 mini chocolates
6.30pm: 2 x vegie burritos for dinner - 8 points
9.00pm onwards: Lots of beer. Lots. I lost count
Points spent: Who knows!
Points earnt: 6.5 points
I managed lots of exercise so I was happy with that. And boy did I have fun Friday. I rarely drink to get drunk so I don't mind when I slip up occasionally. I remember have a big conversation with my guest about losing weight. She's currently trying to shift 30kgs and we managed to be great support on the night. Went home and slept without a kebab or chocolate in my belly. I was proud!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Motivation rewind
I had a late night after the movies so I struggled to get out of bed today. I completely ignored my 5.40 alarm for circuit and then ignore my bike. thankfully I have a relatively free evening tonight and can squeeze in 30-40 minutes on the bike and then have a bigger workout tomorrow
7.30am: Breakfast! 3 points. Lovely porridge. Clean my house top to bottom
11.20am: Apricot bran muffin 2 points
2.00pm: time for lunch. I have what's left of my chicken and corn soup from yesterday as well as two slices of toast with spread. 6 points.
4.30pm: Afternoon tea is my trust yogurt and muesli, 3 points. Then later on I found the Fruitsies from ALdi in my drawer and I couldn't say no so I had one. 1 point
6.30pm: Did 20 minutes on the bike.
7.30pm: Ate some shepherd's pie. Hadn't planned on a big dinner but I was really hungry after the biking. 4 points. Then I started to feel like binging. I had about 6 dried apricots and a plum. I really wanted something else, something savoury, but I managed to keep myself busy and avoided it. 1.5 points.
Points eaten: 20
Points earned: 1
7.30am: Breakfast! 3 points. Lovely porridge. Clean my house top to bottom
11.20am: Apricot bran muffin 2 points
2.00pm: time for lunch. I have what's left of my chicken and corn soup from yesterday as well as two slices of toast with spread. 6 points.
4.30pm: Afternoon tea is my trust yogurt and muesli, 3 points. Then later on I found the Fruitsies from ALdi in my drawer and I couldn't say no so I had one. 1 point
6.30pm: Did 20 minutes on the bike.
7.30pm: Ate some shepherd's pie. Hadn't planned on a big dinner but I was really hungry after the biking. 4 points. Then I started to feel like binging. I had about 6 dried apricots and a plum. I really wanted something else, something savoury, but I managed to keep myself busy and avoided it. 1.5 points.
Points eaten: 20
Points earned: 1
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Motivation!
I woke up this morning really not wanting to exercise. I'm feeling really flat at the moment. I had a panic attack two nights ago and never really covered. I'd never had a proper panic attack before and the fear that I'll have another one is really exhausting.
Regardless I pressed on and do what I always do when I don't want to exercise but I know I should - I break it down into steps. Actually I do this with a lot of things in my life.
1) Get out of pyjamas
2) Get into gym gear
Usually the next step would be "get out of the house" but thanks to my new exercise all I had to do was pick something to listen to or watch (in this case, the latest This American Life) and get pedaling.
I did 30 minutes of intervals - 10 minutes more than last night. I can't believe how much I sweat! The only issue I'm having is there is a bit of pressure in my knees. I think it's because it's manual tension so it's a little sticky getting the pedals around. Not quite sure how to remedy this other than upgrading next time. Considering I'm already pedalling at the top level this might be pretty necessary.
So...
7.15am: 30 minute bike intervals
8.20am: Banana apple oats 3 points
11.15am: Time for an orange. This takes me half an hour to eat. No joke. 1 point. Water time!
2.00pm: Lunch time. I am keeping my points to a minimum during the day because I'm going out for dinner. I had 1 serve of Campbells Chicken and Corn soup - 2.5points
4.20pm: Afternoon snack - my usual yogurt minus the muesli - 1 point
7.00pm: have 1.5 beers and some popcorn at the movie (share the popcorn amoungst a few of us)
9.00pm: Dumpling heaven! 7 of us order a plate each - I try everything - all sorts of dumplings plus salt 'n' pepper squid, chinese brocolli and the most delicious dim sums I've ever eaten! Plus one more beer for good measure. Probably over points but I deliverately ate very little all day so I could enjoy this relatively guilt free. I didn't feel completely stuffed at the end of the evening. I think I ate just the right amount!
Points eaten: Let's say 19!
Points earnt: 3.5
Regardless I pressed on and do what I always do when I don't want to exercise but I know I should - I break it down into steps. Actually I do this with a lot of things in my life.
1) Get out of pyjamas
2) Get into gym gear
Usually the next step would be "get out of the house" but thanks to my new exercise all I had to do was pick something to listen to or watch (in this case, the latest This American Life) and get pedaling.
I did 30 minutes of intervals - 10 minutes more than last night. I can't believe how much I sweat! The only issue I'm having is there is a bit of pressure in my knees. I think it's because it's manual tension so it's a little sticky getting the pedals around. Not quite sure how to remedy this other than upgrading next time. Considering I'm already pedalling at the top level this might be pretty necessary.
So...
7.15am: 30 minute bike intervals
8.20am: Banana apple oats 3 points
11.15am: Time for an orange. This takes me half an hour to eat. No joke. 1 point. Water time!
2.00pm: Lunch time. I am keeping my points to a minimum during the day because I'm going out for dinner. I had 1 serve of Campbells Chicken and Corn soup - 2.5points
4.20pm: Afternoon snack - my usual yogurt minus the muesli - 1 point
7.00pm: have 1.5 beers and some popcorn at the movie (share the popcorn amoungst a few of us)
9.00pm: Dumpling heaven! 7 of us order a plate each - I try everything - all sorts of dumplings plus salt 'n' pepper squid, chinese brocolli and the most delicious dim sums I've ever eaten! Plus one more beer for good measure. Probably over points but I deliverately ate very little all day so I could enjoy this relatively guilt free. I didn't feel completely stuffed at the end of the evening. I think I ate just the right amount!
Points eaten: Let's say 19!
Points earnt: 3.5
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Here comes the winter
It's officially autumn but it's starting to feel like winter. It's grey outside and I don't trust my washing on the line.
I'm down quite a bit on the scales this morning thanks to an on track day yesterday but I'm trying not to spend too much time on the scale between weigh ins this week.
6.00am: Head to the gym for boxing circuit but the class is sold out! I do a 10 minute interval on the cross-trainer before deciding to head home and work out on the bike. I'm so unmotivated at the gym when I'm not in a class. Thankfully our boxing circuit instructor grabbed me before I left - apparently they had uneven numbers and needed me. Thank goodness they did - I got an awesome workout in the end. I feel like I have a lot of strength back in my arms now
7.30am: Banana oats with added apple this morning. Yum! 3 points
11.00am: Another apricot oat bran muffin and cup of tea for breakfast. 2 points.
1.30pm: Left over shepherd's pie - this was amazing last night and even better heated up today. Pumpkin *and* potato topping FTW. 4 points.
4.00pm: Yogurt and muesli again, 3.5 points
6.30pm: Stop by a friends place for dinner. He makes me some very healthy chilli with a small amount of rice - 3.5 points
7.00pm: Come home, do some washing, stick on some early Bill Bailey and do 20 minutes intervals on the bike. It was killer - I pushed myself as much as possible. Dripping with sweat at the end.
7.30pm: Eat a plum .5 points
8.30pm: Eat popcorn with honey and a coupe of handfuls of dried apricots while watching the latest episode of Doctor Who. 3 points
Total points eaten: 19
Total points earnt: 8
I'm down quite a bit on the scales this morning thanks to an on track day yesterday but I'm trying not to spend too much time on the scale between weigh ins this week.
6.00am: Head to the gym for boxing circuit but the class is sold out! I do a 10 minute interval on the cross-trainer before deciding to head home and work out on the bike. I'm so unmotivated at the gym when I'm not in a class. Thankfully our boxing circuit instructor grabbed me before I left - apparently they had uneven numbers and needed me. Thank goodness they did - I got an awesome workout in the end. I feel like I have a lot of strength back in my arms now
7.30am: Banana oats with added apple this morning. Yum! 3 points
11.00am: Another apricot oat bran muffin and cup of tea for breakfast. 2 points.
1.30pm: Left over shepherd's pie - this was amazing last night and even better heated up today. Pumpkin *and* potato topping FTW. 4 points.
4.00pm: Yogurt and muesli again, 3.5 points
6.30pm: Stop by a friends place for dinner. He makes me some very healthy chilli with a small amount of rice - 3.5 points
7.00pm: Come home, do some washing, stick on some early Bill Bailey and do 20 minutes intervals on the bike. It was killer - I pushed myself as much as possible. Dripping with sweat at the end.
7.30pm: Eat a plum .5 points
8.30pm: Eat popcorn with honey and a coupe of handfuls of dried apricots while watching the latest episode of Doctor Who. 3 points
Total points eaten: 19
Total points earnt: 8
Monday, April 12, 2010
Well rested and ready to rumble
Last night I used some curtains and a blanket and made a fort in my lounge room. Then I crawled in and slept for hours. It was amazing. I think I had one of the best sleeps ever, though some pretty weird and disturbing dreams. I'm not well rested and ready to start the day
7.45am: Banana oats - 2.5 points
11.30am: Another busy day - finally get to eat my apricot and oat bran muffin with a cup of tea. Delicious and filling, 2 points.
1.30pm: Time for lunch. Wholemeal spaghetti pasta for 4.5 points. I'm really enjoying my food today! I don't feel hungry and I don't crave anything sweet like I usually do. I think the slight sweetness of the muffin was a good idea.
4.00pm: Yogurt and muesli time. 2.5 points - loving it!
7.30pm: After about an hour of cooking I had a vegetarian shepherds pie. I popped a little bit of parmesan cheese in my mouth while waiting. I mixed in some pumpkin with the potato - sooooo delicious! 4 points.
9.00pm: I had planned for popcorn tonight but I just didn't feel like it. I got rid of my TV to see if it would help with my night time eating. Success was almost immediate. I'm watching a few things online but if I'm fidgety I got do something and my need to eat needlessly has gone. I wanted a little something extra so I just had a plum. .5 points.
Total points 18.5.
Need to improve my water in take tomorrow and avoid eating a big hunk of cheese!
7.45am: Banana oats - 2.5 points
11.30am: Another busy day - finally get to eat my apricot and oat bran muffin with a cup of tea. Delicious and filling, 2 points.
1.30pm: Time for lunch. Wholemeal spaghetti pasta for 4.5 points. I'm really enjoying my food today! I don't feel hungry and I don't crave anything sweet like I usually do. I think the slight sweetness of the muffin was a good idea.
4.00pm: Yogurt and muesli time. 2.5 points - loving it!
7.30pm: After about an hour of cooking I had a vegetarian shepherds pie. I popped a little bit of parmesan cheese in my mouth while waiting. I mixed in some pumpkin with the potato - sooooo delicious! 4 points.
9.00pm: I had planned for popcorn tonight but I just didn't feel like it. I got rid of my TV to see if it would help with my night time eating. Success was almost immediate. I'm watching a few things online but if I'm fidgety I got do something and my need to eat needlessly has gone. I wanted a little something extra so I just had a plum. .5 points.
Total points 18.5.
Need to improve my water in take tomorrow and avoid eating a big hunk of cheese!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Another day another hangover and regret
As you can see from my post this morning, I was dealing with a hangover today as well as a lack of sleep.
My day went a little like this
7.30: Wake up, want to die. Am extremely emotional so can't sleep
8.00: Decide to have some breakfast. No banana for my oats so I have my planned snack instead. 1/4 cup light vanilla yogurt with 1/4 cup of untoasted muesli. 3 points.
10.30: Cooked Apricot Oatbran muffins. Used way too much bran - I think, so added an extra egg. Turned out quite good. 2 points.
1.15-2.30: Graxed a lot, now. Two slices of toast with vegemite, 2 rice cakes with dip, 2 has browns and a bowl of porridge. I now have just 1 point left. I'm exhausted, couldn't nap and now have to walk 30 minutes to play a 40 minute futsal match. Hopefully the walk will wake me up and I'll be so tired when I get home I wont want to eat much. I could eat a yogurt and some steamed vegies or something like that.
5.10: Played a game of football despite being insanely tired. We lost but apparently I played my best game of football ever. GO figure. I also walked there and back which is 1 hour total
7.30: Getting hungry now. Had some popcorn and then yogurt with muesli. Made myself a fort and went to sleep
Total points I ate today: 22.5
Points earned: 8
My day went a little like this
7.30: Wake up, want to die. Am extremely emotional so can't sleep
8.00: Decide to have some breakfast. No banana for my oats so I have my planned snack instead. 1/4 cup light vanilla yogurt with 1/4 cup of untoasted muesli. 3 points.
10.30: Cooked Apricot Oatbran muffins. Used way too much bran - I think, so added an extra egg. Turned out quite good. 2 points.
1.15-2.30: Graxed a lot, now. Two slices of toast with vegemite, 2 rice cakes with dip, 2 has browns and a bowl of porridge. I now have just 1 point left. I'm exhausted, couldn't nap and now have to walk 30 minutes to play a 40 minute futsal match. Hopefully the walk will wake me up and I'll be so tired when I get home I wont want to eat much. I could eat a yogurt and some steamed vegies or something like that.
5.10: Played a game of football despite being insanely tired. We lost but apparently I played my best game of football ever. GO figure. I also walked there and back which is 1 hour total
7.30: Getting hungry now. Had some popcorn and then yogurt with muesli. Made myself a fort and went to sleep
Total points I ate today: 22.5
Points earned: 8
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Friendly bistro
Weigh in day today!
Last week: 69.6kg
This week: 69.3kg
I had hoped for more but I certainly don't deserve more. Another week another chance!
9.00am: Head to the supermarket before weigh in. Pick up everything for the week except veg. I had planned to go to the market after my meeting but forgot!
10.15am: 10 minutes on the bike. Not uite the 30 minutes I'd hoped for but got my heart rate up and sweated like a mother effer! Will aim for 30 minutes by the end of the weekend. I have breakfast at a friend's house today. So my carefully planned day has hit a snag. It'll be a very late breakfast so the plan is for this to be breakfast, lunch and one of my snacks. I've saved myself 9.5 points for breakfast.
....
I'm not going to go through hour by hour from now on. It's Sunday morning and I'm hungover as all hell. Breakfast was the only proper meal I ate all that. After that I had a few chocolate mini eggs, lots of alcohol and one slice of pepperoni pizza to keep me going. I ended up eating 30 points in all. Man, it could have been a *lot* worse, thankfully it wasn't. Food wise I did fine - points wise that is, not nutrition wise - it was the alcohol that *really* tipped my points.
Don't worry. I wont be doing that for a while. It ended up in a horrible row with my ex blowing any chances I foolishly thought we might ever have of getting back together. I think I'll just hide under a rock for the day.
Last week: 69.6kg
This week: 69.3kg
I had hoped for more but I certainly don't deserve more. Another week another chance!
9.00am: Head to the supermarket before weigh in. Pick up everything for the week except veg. I had planned to go to the market after my meeting but forgot!
10.15am: 10 minutes on the bike. Not uite the 30 minutes I'd hoped for but got my heart rate up and sweated like a mother effer! Will aim for 30 minutes by the end of the weekend. I have breakfast at a friend's house today. So my carefully planned day has hit a snag. It'll be a very late breakfast so the plan is for this to be breakfast, lunch and one of my snacks. I've saved myself 9.5 points for breakfast.
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I'm not going to go through hour by hour from now on. It's Sunday morning and I'm hungover as all hell. Breakfast was the only proper meal I ate all that. After that I had a few chocolate mini eggs, lots of alcohol and one slice of pepperoni pizza to keep me going. I ended up eating 30 points in all. Man, it could have been a *lot* worse, thankfully it wasn't. Food wise I did fine - points wise that is, not nutrition wise - it was the alcohol that *really* tipped my points.
Don't worry. I wont be doing that for a while. It ended up in a horrible row with my ex blowing any chances I foolishly thought we might ever have of getting back together. I think I'll just hide under a rock for the day.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Aftermath
Boy I feel seedy this morning. Not 100% hungover just really tired. The bike sits unused - I am *so* sore from yesterday - which is great - it means i'm finally working hard.
Weirder than anything I'm down almost a kilo. Could it just be dehydration? I'm not sure!
8.15am: My friend cooks me breakfast. 1 scrambled egg with reduced fat fetta on toast with 2 hash browns and a glass of juice. 10.5 points but so worth it!
11.40am: I only bought one snack to work today thinking my larger than average breakfast would keep me full until lunch. Not so - I'm famished now so I eat my yogurt and muesli, 3 points. I only have a very small lunch - something tells me I might need to go buy something for afternoon tea
2.20pm: I stopped by the supermarket on my travels to find afternoon tea and settled on some crackers with light cheese and a mandarin. I craved the cheese so I had that for lunch. 3.5 points.
4.50pm: I have my lunch for afternoon tea. 2 points. I definitely wont be drinking tonight as planned so that's a few extra points. Right now I want a cup of tea and chocolate. I may go the cup of tea but really I should stay out of the kitchen and away from the charity chocolates! Only 50 minutes until I have leave so I'll just stay busy til then. Water intake has been terrible - will catch up now!
5.50pm: Ok so I just snarfed three fruitsies. 3 points. on the verge of a binge but thankfully I have to leave soon. Lyn wrote a great piece today about her tipping point. About how trigger moods and food don't *always* trigger a binge but there is a saturation point where you feel like you just can't say no. I feel like my exhaustion/hangover/stress/end of week joy all came to a head when I opened my desk drawer and saw that packet of fruitsies! They've been there for well over a week now without a second thought.
7.00pm: Saw the amazing Tim Vine
8.00pm: Dinner. 1 Corona, 4 dumplings some rice and a shared plate of honey pork ribs. Approx 11 points
Way over points today but I feel ok. I didn't stuff myself and I do feel like I held back a lot despite my hangover and exhaustion. Basically I have felt much more in control this week. I think the planning and the blogging has made such a huge difference. I wont expect much on the scale though a small loss would be nice!
Weirder than anything I'm down almost a kilo. Could it just be dehydration? I'm not sure!
8.15am: My friend cooks me breakfast. 1 scrambled egg with reduced fat fetta on toast with 2 hash browns and a glass of juice. 10.5 points but so worth it!
11.40am: I only bought one snack to work today thinking my larger than average breakfast would keep me full until lunch. Not so - I'm famished now so I eat my yogurt and muesli, 3 points. I only have a very small lunch - something tells me I might need to go buy something for afternoon tea
2.20pm: I stopped by the supermarket on my travels to find afternoon tea and settled on some crackers with light cheese and a mandarin. I craved the cheese so I had that for lunch. 3.5 points.
4.50pm: I have my lunch for afternoon tea. 2 points. I definitely wont be drinking tonight as planned so that's a few extra points. Right now I want a cup of tea and chocolate. I may go the cup of tea but really I should stay out of the kitchen and away from the charity chocolates! Only 50 minutes until I have leave so I'll just stay busy til then. Water intake has been terrible - will catch up now!
5.50pm: Ok so I just snarfed three fruitsies. 3 points. on the verge of a binge but thankfully I have to leave soon. Lyn wrote a great piece today about her tipping point. About how trigger moods and food don't *always* trigger a binge but there is a saturation point where you feel like you just can't say no. I feel like my exhaustion/hangover/stress/end of week joy all came to a head when I opened my desk drawer and saw that packet of fruitsies! They've been there for well over a week now without a second thought.
7.00pm: Saw the amazing Tim Vine
8.00pm: Dinner. 1 Corona, 4 dumplings some rice and a shared plate of honey pork ribs. Approx 11 points
Way over points today but I feel ok. I didn't stuff myself and I do feel like I held back a lot despite my hangover and exhaustion. Basically I have felt much more in control this week. I think the planning and the blogging has made such a huge difference. I wont expect much on the scale though a small loss would be nice!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Measuring Up - Week 1
Photo and measurement time!
The photos were really hard. Front on captures my large child-bearing hips fine but side on didn't really get my nicely rounded gut in the right light and it actually looks ok! I'll work on that for next time.
MEASUREMENTS
Waist: 79cm
Hips: 101cm
Bust: 92cm
Upper arms: 28cm
Thighs: 54cm
It's funny - I always think of myself as an hour glass, but I'm definitely bottom heavy. I'd love for that to even out but last time I lost a significant amount of weight I lost my boobs!
The photos were really hard. Front on captures my large child-bearing hips fine but side on didn't really get my nicely rounded gut in the right light and it actually looks ok! I'll work on that for next time.
MEASUREMENTS
Waist: 79cm
Hips: 101cm
Bust: 92cm
Upper arms: 28cm
Thighs: 54cm
It's funny - I always think of myself as an hour glass, but I'm definitely bottom heavy. I'd love for that to even out but last time I lost a significant amount of weight I lost my boobs!
Another day, hope for success
Yesterday really paid off and I'm down to 69.2kg on the scale. I'm very pleased with this. Even without a loss I would have been super happy with yesterday.
Here's to another day on plan!
6.15am: Circuit class. I had no trouble getting up and going this morning. Group exercise really does it for me. I like that I don't have to think, I just go there and do! I really pushed myself this morning. MY arms and legs feel like jelly - I think for the first time in ages I might actually be sore tomorrow!
7.20am: Breakfast time. I'm doubling up my oats this morning. I want to make sure I hit my 19 points. 4 points.
9.00am: My exercise bike arrives! It asn't supposed to come until tomorrow but they had a cancellation and a spare bike. I can't wait to try it out tomorrow - maybe even tonight.
11.20am: Man, it's so busy at work today! I've been going non-stop all morning getting banking up to date and I still have heaps to do! Plus I need to get out of the office and run a tonne of errands. Looks like I'll need to rope a few hapless helpers in! I eat 2 thick rice cakes and skinny hummus, 1.5 points
1.45pm: Lunch. More leftover chickpea curry, 4 points. I can't get enough of this stuff!
4.45pm: Yogurt and muesli time 3.5 points. The afternoon has totally gotten away from me. This muesli thing has been so great though! I don't even give the chocolate barrel a second look. I got invited to dinner, regardless of how late I work, but I said no because I didn't plan for it. Up to 6 glasses of water. No sweat.
8.30pm: I get to the pub after work to meet some friends thinking I'll just have one beer. I wasn't at all hungry so I even considered skipping dinner. 3.5 beers later and that's changed
10.00pm: Get home with a friend and heat up a pizza. Eat 3 slices, which isn't too bad, then I break out the easter chocolate. One medium sized hollow egg and 5 caramel eggs later. I don't feel awesome. No idea of points. It wasn't really a binge, it was a drunken eat!
Here's to another day on plan!
6.15am: Circuit class. I had no trouble getting up and going this morning. Group exercise really does it for me. I like that I don't have to think, I just go there and do! I really pushed myself this morning. MY arms and legs feel like jelly - I think for the first time in ages I might actually be sore tomorrow!
7.20am: Breakfast time. I'm doubling up my oats this morning. I want to make sure I hit my 19 points. 4 points.
9.00am: My exercise bike arrives! It asn't supposed to come until tomorrow but they had a cancellation and a spare bike. I can't wait to try it out tomorrow - maybe even tonight.
11.20am: Man, it's so busy at work today! I've been going non-stop all morning getting banking up to date and I still have heaps to do! Plus I need to get out of the office and run a tonne of errands. Looks like I'll need to rope a few hapless helpers in! I eat 2 thick rice cakes and skinny hummus, 1.5 points
1.45pm: Lunch. More leftover chickpea curry, 4 points. I can't get enough of this stuff!
4.45pm: Yogurt and muesli time 3.5 points. The afternoon has totally gotten away from me. This muesli thing has been so great though! I don't even give the chocolate barrel a second look. I got invited to dinner, regardless of how late I work, but I said no because I didn't plan for it. Up to 6 glasses of water. No sweat.
8.30pm: I get to the pub after work to meet some friends thinking I'll just have one beer. I wasn't at all hungry so I even considered skipping dinner. 3.5 beers later and that's changed
10.00pm: Get home with a friend and heat up a pizza. Eat 3 slices, which isn't too bad, then I break out the easter chocolate. One medium sized hollow egg and 5 caramel eggs later. I don't feel awesome. No idea of points. It wasn't really a binge, it was a drunken eat!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Bored and gaining
Again, yesterday was not a great day. I put on another 300 grams this morning. Then, when I woke up, I had absolutely zero motivation to get out and run.
I *am* excited about starting my 10k training but I want to do that closer to the race - which is in July. I have no trouble getting up and going to group exercise. When it comes down to it, I'm being lazy. I feel quite depressed and confused about life in general at the moment and gaining weight certainly isn't helping. This is spilling over into my motivation and I realise I really need to take control of this.
Control being the operative word.
I can't control my ex-boyfriend's actions. I can't control my mum's cancer. But I am in control of me.
So, this morning I thought, "if I don't go for a run I have to do something proactive". So I made a big pasta dish to last 4 meals, I made my bed, I took out three loads of garbage, I did all my washing up. Then I ordered myself an exercise bike online.
Yes. I know. A bike. *Me*. I usually avoid biking at all costs at the gym. Something about all that leg work, and the uncomfortable seats. Though when I *do* acheive on a bike I feel extra proud! I decided on a bike because I need something in my house to stop me making excuses! Plus the weather is cooling down so pretty soon, it'll be even easier to make an excuse not to go outside. I just have it ordered for hire for 1 month, to make sure I use it and don't waste any money. I'm looking forward to coming up with some exercise plans for it!
A few things I tried to keep in mind for today:
Say no!
Eat properly!
Drink lots of water!
8.00am: Banana oats time! 2 points
11.20am: Have been keping really busy this morning and had my morning tea late. Two thick rice cakes with skinny hummus, 1.5 points. I realise that I haven't had any water yet so gulp down a couple of glasses asap
1.40pm: Lunch time! This re-heated chick pea curry (4 points) gets better every day. Then I pop to the shops and buy a big bag of muesli.
3.40pm: Yogurt and muesli time. Actually I'm not *that* hungry but I really want to see if the muesli I bought from Aldi is any good. It is. 3 points (I think - had to estimate 1/4 cup size)
8.15pm: I ended up working late and getting home starving. I tucked into about 8 water crackers with dip. By the time my pasta was heated up I wasn't as hungry so I decided to just eat half rather than a full serve. I knew that popcorn was a must have as it is every night, if I wanted it I had to make sacrifices. I'm very proud right about now. 7.5 points
8.40pm: Popcorn time. The usual 1/4 cup with some honey. 1.5 points
Total for today: 19.5 points
I'm so happy with this. Only .5 points over.
I *am* excited about starting my 10k training but I want to do that closer to the race - which is in July. I have no trouble getting up and going to group exercise. When it comes down to it, I'm being lazy. I feel quite depressed and confused about life in general at the moment and gaining weight certainly isn't helping. This is spilling over into my motivation and I realise I really need to take control of this.
Control being the operative word.
I can't control my ex-boyfriend's actions. I can't control my mum's cancer. But I am in control of me.
So, this morning I thought, "if I don't go for a run I have to do something proactive". So I made a big pasta dish to last 4 meals, I made my bed, I took out three loads of garbage, I did all my washing up. Then I ordered myself an exercise bike online.
Yes. I know. A bike. *Me*. I usually avoid biking at all costs at the gym. Something about all that leg work, and the uncomfortable seats. Though when I *do* acheive on a bike I feel extra proud! I decided on a bike because I need something in my house to stop me making excuses! Plus the weather is cooling down so pretty soon, it'll be even easier to make an excuse not to go outside. I just have it ordered for hire for 1 month, to make sure I use it and don't waste any money. I'm looking forward to coming up with some exercise plans for it!
A few things I tried to keep in mind for today:
Say no!
Eat properly!
Drink lots of water!
8.00am: Banana oats time! 2 points
11.20am: Have been keping really busy this morning and had my morning tea late. Two thick rice cakes with skinny hummus, 1.5 points. I realise that I haven't had any water yet so gulp down a couple of glasses asap
1.40pm: Lunch time! This re-heated chick pea curry (4 points) gets better every day. Then I pop to the shops and buy a big bag of muesli.
3.40pm: Yogurt and muesli time. Actually I'm not *that* hungry but I really want to see if the muesli I bought from Aldi is any good. It is. 3 points (I think - had to estimate 1/4 cup size)
8.15pm: I ended up working late and getting home starving. I tucked into about 8 water crackers with dip. By the time my pasta was heated up I wasn't as hungry so I decided to just eat half rather than a full serve. I knew that popcorn was a must have as it is every night, if I wanted it I had to make sacrifices. I'm very proud right about now. 7.5 points
8.40pm: Popcorn time. The usual 1/4 cup with some honey. 1.5 points
Total for today: 19.5 points
I'm so happy with this. Only .5 points over.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Yesterday and today
Yesterday wasn't the best day but it went ok - all in all I over-ate, but not too much, and my weight stayed the same.
Journaling worked so well over the weekend I've decided to keep it up for the forseeable future, so here goes for today
6.15am: Hit the gym for boxing circuit. Made my best efforts to really push myself this morning. I really miss how fit I felt 6 months ago and I'm keen to get back there asap. I'm even considering a boot camp in the future to help boost things along
7.15am: Breakfast time: Banana oats with maple syrup (out of honey) and a serve of peanuts - 5 points. I'm going to just aim for 19 points per day this week, rather than trying to save and make up for the weekend. Saving too many every day just leaves me hungry. I know this yet I always try to do it and fail. I know that even with the blow outs I've had this weekend I can still loose weight eating 19 points a day from now on.
10.20am: Today is turning out to be a stressful day. I'm not that hungry but I eat my muesli bar anyway. 1.5 points.
11.00am: I got offered a cupcake. I ate the cupcake. 4 points.
1.00pm: Proper hunger time - leftpver pumpkin chickpea curry - yay! 4 points (as much as the cupcake, cupcake bad and evil.)
3.40pm: Time for afternoon tea. I bought a serve of Ski D'lite Vanilla Creme on special at the supermarket. Then I added Maltesers to it. Bad move. Why did I do this? Because even though I don't mind yogurt I really like it when there's something in it. For the same amount of points as the Maltesers I could have had a small apple and half a small banana, or some home-made low fat granola. I'm making a mental note to buy a lot more fruit this week and make some granola so I can have my yogurt and eat it without falling asleep. 3 points.
6.00pm: Dinner time. Soup and toast 5.5 points
I made some strawberry mousse for dessert. I ate half and then realised it was disgusting and I didn't want to waste my points on something I wasn't enjoying. I then made two serves of popcorn with maple syrup. 4 points. Yet again way over points and wanting to binge. So let's analyse
1) I start the week off badly so I feel like I've already ruined it
2) I'm going through a stressful time in my life. I'm letting my life get disorganised and it's not helping me stay off track
3) I'm eating sub standard food I don't really like so I keep adding to try and satisfy myself
4) I've gotten out of the habit of saying no to people when they offer me bad foods
How to remedy this
1) Try extra hard to have a perfect weekend
2) Make all my food in advance so I feel more organised during the week
3) Plan lovely, tasty yummy foods and snacks (I've done this already)
4) Say NO!
Journaling worked so well over the weekend I've decided to keep it up for the forseeable future, so here goes for today
6.15am: Hit the gym for boxing circuit. Made my best efforts to really push myself this morning. I really miss how fit I felt 6 months ago and I'm keen to get back there asap. I'm even considering a boot camp in the future to help boost things along
7.15am: Breakfast time: Banana oats with maple syrup (out of honey) and a serve of peanuts - 5 points. I'm going to just aim for 19 points per day this week, rather than trying to save and make up for the weekend. Saving too many every day just leaves me hungry. I know this yet I always try to do it and fail. I know that even with the blow outs I've had this weekend I can still loose weight eating 19 points a day from now on.
10.20am: Today is turning out to be a stressful day. I'm not that hungry but I eat my muesli bar anyway. 1.5 points.
11.00am: I got offered a cupcake. I ate the cupcake. 4 points.
1.00pm: Proper hunger time - leftpver pumpkin chickpea curry - yay! 4 points (as much as the cupcake, cupcake bad and evil.)
3.40pm: Time for afternoon tea. I bought a serve of Ski D'lite Vanilla Creme on special at the supermarket. Then I added Maltesers to it. Bad move. Why did I do this? Because even though I don't mind yogurt I really like it when there's something in it. For the same amount of points as the Maltesers I could have had a small apple and half a small banana, or some home-made low fat granola. I'm making a mental note to buy a lot more fruit this week and make some granola so I can have my yogurt and eat it without falling asleep. 3 points.
6.00pm: Dinner time. Soup and toast 5.5 points
I made some strawberry mousse for dessert. I ate half and then realised it was disgusting and I didn't want to waste my points on something I wasn't enjoying. I then made two serves of popcorn with maple syrup. 4 points. Yet again way over points and wanting to binge. So let's analyse
1) I start the week off badly so I feel like I've already ruined it
2) I'm going through a stressful time in my life. I'm letting my life get disorganised and it's not helping me stay off track
3) I'm eating sub standard food I don't really like so I keep adding to try and satisfy myself
4) I've gotten out of the habit of saying no to people when they offer me bad foods
How to remedy this
1) Try extra hard to have a perfect weekend
2) Make all my food in advance so I feel more organised during the week
3) Plan lovely, tasty yummy foods and snacks (I've done this already)
4) Say NO!
Monday, April 5, 2010
Success
Sometimes, you just need one successful day to prove to yourself that you can do it. I had fallen into the trap of thinking I was a failure because I kept making mistakes. On one day I'd over eat, it would knock my confidence and I wouldn't try as hard the next day because I would just assume I couldn't do it.
Yesterday was that day back on track and it worked
Saturday morning weight: 69.3kg
Sunday morning weight (after binge): 69.8kg
Monday morning weight (after successful day on track): 69.3kg!
I wont bother journaling again today, but I will report how I did sticking to my plan and let you know my weight each day.
For now, I'm going to enjoy my day off. Clean my house and then go and get some exercise in!
Yesterday was that day back on track and it worked
Saturday morning weight: 69.3kg
Sunday morning weight (after binge): 69.8kg
Monday morning weight (after successful day on track): 69.3kg!
I wont bother journaling again today, but I will report how I did sticking to my plan and let you know my weight each day.
For now, I'm going to enjoy my day off. Clean my house and then go and get some exercise in!
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Jounal again!
Well yesterday was a bit of a failure wasn't it? Well, not entirely. It's not like I ate all my planned meals and *then* pigged out. I did try..but not hard enough. I felt a bit sick after all that food I ate!
But I tracked everything and went through my weekly pllan to see what I could eliminate without going hungry.
Then I had a bit of an epihany. Every day I allow2 points for honey. 1 tablespoon on my porridge and one on my popcorn. I started to wonder if I really did have 1 tablespoon as I'd never measured it. So this morning, I got out the teaspoon instead, and measured my honey in that. And what do you know? I've only ever had a teaspoon on my porridge not a tablespoon! 1 tsp of honey is 0 points, I was able to eliminated 2 points per day. I got rid of a few other small things like nuttelex on my bread (I can put a little spray oil and rub in some garlic instead, yummy) and apple from my porridge and there - I made up the 20.5 points I ate last night. Now I just have to stick with it.
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9.00am: Breakfast: Porridge with banana and honey: 2 points
10.45am: Fit and Active bar, 1.5 points, before hitting Yoga and Sauna
11.30am: Yoga time. It was a small class today so I ended up working extra hard! I'm going to be sore tomorrow!
2.15pm: After sauna. spa and steam I make it home and heat up some canned soup and make some toast for lunch 4 points. This filled me up quite well besides not being a huge portion. Yum. A friend has invited me around for chocolate cupcakes, I might have to say no! I want to visit her but I just can't eat the cup cakes. I can't do it to myself.
3.30pm: Hungry again! I make popcorn (2 points) and settle in to watch Shaun of the Dead
6.00pm: Time for dinner - pumpkin and chickpea curry with brown rice, 4 points.
7.00pm: Dessert time. I had planned for one yogurt but added a serve of peanuts and 1/2 serve of quick oats to bulk it out. 3.5 points
Total points consumed today: 17
Exercise points earned: 1.5
Glasses of water: 8
Success? HECK YES!
But I tracked everything and went through my weekly pllan to see what I could eliminate without going hungry.
Then I had a bit of an epihany. Every day I allow2 points for honey. 1 tablespoon on my porridge and one on my popcorn. I started to wonder if I really did have 1 tablespoon as I'd never measured it. So this morning, I got out the teaspoon instead, and measured my honey in that. And what do you know? I've only ever had a teaspoon on my porridge not a tablespoon! 1 tsp of honey is 0 points, I was able to eliminated 2 points per day. I got rid of a few other small things like nuttelex on my bread (I can put a little spray oil and rub in some garlic instead, yummy) and apple from my porridge and there - I made up the 20.5 points I ate last night. Now I just have to stick with it.
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9.00am: Breakfast: Porridge with banana and honey: 2 points
10.45am: Fit and Active bar, 1.5 points, before hitting Yoga and Sauna
11.30am: Yoga time. It was a small class today so I ended up working extra hard! I'm going to be sore tomorrow!
2.15pm: After sauna. spa and steam I make it home and heat up some canned soup and make some toast for lunch 4 points. This filled me up quite well besides not being a huge portion. Yum. A friend has invited me around for chocolate cupcakes, I might have to say no! I want to visit her but I just can't eat the cup cakes. I can't do it to myself.
3.30pm: Hungry again! I make popcorn (2 points) and settle in to watch Shaun of the Dead
6.00pm: Time for dinner - pumpkin and chickpea curry with brown rice, 4 points.
7.00pm: Dessert time. I had planned for one yogurt but added a serve of peanuts and 1/2 serve of quick oats to bulk it out. 3.5 points
Total points consumed today: 17
Exercise points earned: 1.5
Glasses of water: 8
Success? HECK YES!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
A journal a day...
Today there was no Weight Watchers meeting, so instead of writing about what was discussed I decided to try journalling my food and activity for the whole day. Here's what I cam up with
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8.00am: Alarm goes off, can't open my eyes, reset for 8.20
8.20am: Get out of bed, get dressed in gym gear, head to gym
9.00am: Circuit class! The gym is so quiet because of easter weekend. We do a similar circuit to last week. 20 stations, going hard for 60 seconds. I pushed myself hard on some things but not on others. I realise it's been a long time since I've had really sore muscles from a workout - make a mental note to push even harder next time. Do tonnes of ab work and way too many planks - I hate planks!
10.00am: My gym friend and I had been umming and ahhing over whether to go to breakfast as we both ahd things to do, we decided to go. Went to the lovely Kojo Brown because they have awesome tea cups, we're both big tea fans. I ordered 2 poached eggs on toast with avocado and bacon. I estimate this to be 10 points. I adjusted my plan for the rest of the day to accomodate this.
11.00am: Come home and think I still feel hungry. My stomach feels empty but I know that it's not possible so I wait a while and finally the food kicks in. I read a few blogs before I get to work showering, cleaning the house and listing a few items on ebay
1.20pm: Starting to feel hungry again. Have a glass of water (my 4th for the day) instead and read a book. Am trying to wait for the first tummy grumble before I eat.
1.30: Yup, definitely hungry. Have a muesli bar, 1.5 points read some more and then have an afternoon nap.
2.30: Have to get out of the house, the sunshine is mocking me! Got to the supermarket and while I'm there arrange to have a friend over for gin and dvds. I feel some meal plan adjustments coming on
3.30: Adjust my plan for 3 gins and some water crackers and dip. Decide against serving the peanuts I bought because I know I wont stop and 1 serve. Will have a small serve of dumplings before my friend arrives to stave off binging on crackers and will drink a glass of water between each gin. Look at my plan, realise I have no vegetables. Eat a carrot.
4.30: Have a late dumpling lunch for 2 points. I feel immediately like pigging out afterwards but distract myself by hanging out washin, doing dishes and then cleaning my teeth. about 15 minutes later the urge to eat isn't nearly as strong though I'm definitely not full. If this was a normal day I would eat again because lunch was very small but I have to save myself!
6.00pm: Mary arrives. Much gin, peanuts, dip and chocolate chip cookies are consumed. I track everything I can remember and find myself about 15 points over. Dissapointing.
My goal of sticking to my 19 points over the weekend has gone out the window but I can come back and even loose weight this week. I will not cut down my daily points intake, I'll just end up hungry and binging. I will just move on like it never happened.
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8.00am: Alarm goes off, can't open my eyes, reset for 8.20
8.20am: Get out of bed, get dressed in gym gear, head to gym
9.00am: Circuit class! The gym is so quiet because of easter weekend. We do a similar circuit to last week. 20 stations, going hard for 60 seconds. I pushed myself hard on some things but not on others. I realise it's been a long time since I've had really sore muscles from a workout - make a mental note to push even harder next time. Do tonnes of ab work and way too many planks - I hate planks!
10.00am: My gym friend and I had been umming and ahhing over whether to go to breakfast as we both ahd things to do, we decided to go. Went to the lovely Kojo Brown because they have awesome tea cups, we're both big tea fans. I ordered 2 poached eggs on toast with avocado and bacon. I estimate this to be 10 points. I adjusted my plan for the rest of the day to accomodate this.
11.00am: Come home and think I still feel hungry. My stomach feels empty but I know that it's not possible so I wait a while and finally the food kicks in. I read a few blogs before I get to work showering, cleaning the house and listing a few items on ebay
1.20pm: Starting to feel hungry again. Have a glass of water (my 4th for the day) instead and read a book. Am trying to wait for the first tummy grumble before I eat.
1.30: Yup, definitely hungry. Have a muesli bar, 1.5 points read some more and then have an afternoon nap.
2.30: Have to get out of the house, the sunshine is mocking me! Got to the supermarket and while I'm there arrange to have a friend over for gin and dvds. I feel some meal plan adjustments coming on
3.30: Adjust my plan for 3 gins and some water crackers and dip. Decide against serving the peanuts I bought because I know I wont stop and 1 serve. Will have a small serve of dumplings before my friend arrives to stave off binging on crackers and will drink a glass of water between each gin. Look at my plan, realise I have no vegetables. Eat a carrot.
4.30: Have a late dumpling lunch for 2 points. I feel immediately like pigging out afterwards but distract myself by hanging out washin, doing dishes and then cleaning my teeth. about 15 minutes later the urge to eat isn't nearly as strong though I'm definitely not full. If this was a normal day I would eat again because lunch was very small but I have to save myself!
6.00pm: Mary arrives. Much gin, peanuts, dip and chocolate chip cookies are consumed. I track everything I can remember and find myself about 15 points over. Dissapointing.
My goal of sticking to my 19 points over the weekend has gone out the window but I can come back and even loose weight this week. I will not cut down my daily points intake, I'll just end up hungry and binging. I will just move on like it never happened.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Friday Check In
It's the end of my first week of being back on the program, back into blogging and feeling like I've made a fresh start.
This was not a great week by any stretch of the imagination. I didn't acheive all my goals, I binged, I skipped exercise.
But the improvements I've made, and some choices I've made are so much better than the previous 3-4 months that I really do feel like I'm back on track.
Sticking to my food plan: I had hoped to consume only 19 points a day. This didn't happen at all. I'm disappointed but I think maybe it was a bit of a big goal for the first week back. Even when I was loosing weight I would often go at least 2-3 points over. I'll be revising this in this weeks goal
Exercise plan: Actually this went perfectly until today! I had a very emotional night last night and got almost no sleep. I'm a zombie now and have cancelled all plans for the day including exercise. I am going to clean my house, get on top of a few small things and then eventually have a nice big sleep, refreshed for the new week tomorrow
Water, water, water: This went *really* well. I almost got to 8 glasses every day, including weekends, and I oftened turned to water when I thought I felt hungry.
Stick to points over the weekend: This used to be my main food goal in the past. Saturdays and Sundays were my big mess up days, as they are for a lot of people. I had planned to have my easter bunny - my one and only chocolate for easter, Sunday - but there's been a change of plans. I'll eat the chocolate today leaving my weekend free to aim for 19 points. Obviously I'd love to carry it over into the week but if I can cope with Saturday and Sunday I think it'll really set the tone for the week and I'll be a lot more successful with a bit less effort.
Exercise: I did really well this week and I think I can definitely do it again. The change I want to make this week links in with my binge eating. After dinner and desert I plan to go for a 20 minute walk. 10 minutes down to the main street and then 10 back. The nights this week that I was forced to leave the house straight after dinner because of prior engagements - particularly ones I had to walk to - really stopped me from binging. That's 20 minutes 7 days this week. Totally doable.
Water: I did so well last week, this week I want to get to 8 glasses every day.
Pre-cook meals: I did pre-cook a lot of meals this week but today I plan on pre-cooking 4 serves of a chickpea curry and 4 serves of a vegetarian bolognaise. I'm just writing it here to help me stick with my plan!
Confession
So my confession this week is despite that promise to myself, I didn't attend my WW meeting. As I mentioned earlier in the week, my usual meeting is closed on Saturday so I planned to weigh in near my work on Thursday. I couldn't. I got too nervous! I hate new situations and knowing it was a once off made it even harder to go. I will weigh in on my scales on Saturday and hope there isn't too much of a difference.
This was not a great week by any stretch of the imagination. I didn't acheive all my goals, I binged, I skipped exercise.
But the improvements I've made, and some choices I've made are so much better than the previous 3-4 months that I really do feel like I'm back on track.
Sticking to my food plan: I had hoped to consume only 19 points a day. This didn't happen at all. I'm disappointed but I think maybe it was a bit of a big goal for the first week back. Even when I was loosing weight I would often go at least 2-3 points over. I'll be revising this in this weeks goal
Exercise plan: Actually this went perfectly until today! I had a very emotional night last night and got almost no sleep. I'm a zombie now and have cancelled all plans for the day including exercise. I am going to clean my house, get on top of a few small things and then eventually have a nice big sleep, refreshed for the new week tomorrow
Water, water, water: This went *really* well. I almost got to 8 glasses every day, including weekends, and I oftened turned to water when I thought I felt hungry.
This weeks goals
Stick to points over the weekend: This used to be my main food goal in the past. Saturdays and Sundays were my big mess up days, as they are for a lot of people. I had planned to have my easter bunny - my one and only chocolate for easter, Sunday - but there's been a change of plans. I'll eat the chocolate today leaving my weekend free to aim for 19 points. Obviously I'd love to carry it over into the week but if I can cope with Saturday and Sunday I think it'll really set the tone for the week and I'll be a lot more successful with a bit less effort.
Exercise: I did really well this week and I think I can definitely do it again. The change I want to make this week links in with my binge eating. After dinner and desert I plan to go for a 20 minute walk. 10 minutes down to the main street and then 10 back. The nights this week that I was forced to leave the house straight after dinner because of prior engagements - particularly ones I had to walk to - really stopped me from binging. That's 20 minutes 7 days this week. Totally doable.
Water: I did so well last week, this week I want to get to 8 glasses every day.
Pre-cook meals: I did pre-cook a lot of meals this week but today I plan on pre-cooking 4 serves of a chickpea curry and 4 serves of a vegetarian bolognaise. I'm just writing it here to help me stick with my plan!
Confession
So my confession this week is despite that promise to myself, I didn't attend my WW meeting. As I mentioned earlier in the week, my usual meeting is closed on Saturday so I planned to weigh in near my work on Thursday. I couldn't. I got too nervous! I hate new situations and knowing it was a once off made it even harder to go. I will weigh in on my scales on Saturday and hope there isn't too much of a difference.
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